Treasuring each day...

New House URL

2008-10-06T22:35:00.000+08:00

Opps, wrong url...

New site: http://niqiuh.livejournal.com

New House

2008-09-03T15:43:00.000+08:00

Changed e'tin to www.niqiuh.livejournal.com

Friday 13th-Sim Briefing

2008-06-13T20:44:00.006+08:00

It's Friday the 13th! haha..but i got wonderful day! *loves* *happy happy* ((=

Today i got a day off to Sim Briefing... Sandy i need you to go orientation camp with me!!! haha...tt's the only thing i look forward to when i go for briefing..lol..don really understand what the lecturer is talking abt but i know it's not gonna be easy and it's real EXPENSIVE!!! e'tin is abt $$$$!!! ........

Went IMM and lunched at Spahgetti Too...i had fish baked rice which is delicious...felicia's not satisfied with her vegetarian pasta while peizhen hiam her chicken chop too much...cos too much meat, eat le will ni....shopped ard and IMM really changed alot better..nicer to shop...spent longest time is Daiso....all of us got smthg and headed home separately....

No i didnt head home, i went bugis to shop and bought a jeans for $25..hehe...actually wanted to get more things but i'm controlling! so meet Sinyee and Cindy...headed home together with their new temp staff, Marcus...i guess we're too chatty and noisy that he hardly has any chance to interrupt us and he only stand there laugh at us and wonder what we're talking about...haha...

It's a great relaxing day! hehe... ((=

Sunday: gonna attend Mady's wedding..
Wednesday: attending PeiFen's ROM chalet at aloha.. Both are my colleagues, wonderful funny peeps..haha...they make my day in office enjoyable!
Thursday: dinner with my OSIP mates...
Saturday: having basic theory E-Trial...but can the date be changed so i can go JB?

Well spent week!

2008-06-12T23:02:00.012+08:00

Last week is increase! i mean weight..it's sinful...

Thursday, heavy dinner with relatives and it's a late dinner...

Friday, had sushi in JapanVillage (direct transalation from chinese)...a late dinner again....followed by EXPRESS kbox! haha..is really EXPRESS for that 2hrs...10+ bucks only...haha..tt explains the express singing....

Saturday, afternoon buffet at MansonicHall situated beside the oldest firestation...My auntie's sister's baby one month...lol...Nice place nice ambience but a little too crampy cos of the layout of tables...
Auntie: Nice hor this place...Eh qin u 21st hold it here la...i help you check out the price with my sister...
Later when my XiaoYi joined us....

Xiaoyi: Qin why don't you hold your 21st here!

hahaha....they make me really feel like to have my 21st holding it there! haha...but i think that's not cheap...and needed membership...After visiting grandma, we all went to Aloha Changi for some relative's Bbq...Sooooo...it's another buffet meal....see...it's reallly too much invitation le...lol...

Sunday, Yeah we had a family day at east coast....early mrgn went cycling with cousins and i'm so excited to meet the MrSun...but it's so cloudy! )= and i thgt finally i can exercise to shed off some weight gain from the buffet meals....but who knows....it's still the same lor cos had late night dinner and a very full lunch at PizzaHut...dots....

Oh ya, my sister is damn hao lian abt her height cos i thgt my bicycle is a bit tall for me but my legs still able to touch the ground la....ok tip toe...and know what...u know what...she fell down while cycling! LMAO...hao lian la hao lian...and she didnt shout any pain and was so calm when she fell down and even instructed us to help pick her bicycle up cos her leg is underneath it.....and when i told her i saw blood flowing out from her wound, she CRY la! WAHAHAHA....so stupid...she cry cos of the blood...LOL...both my cousin and i laugh like siao...hahaha....she's very clumsy la..tho always hao lian to me she's taller, yet she always felll down! i guess she has difficulty holding her that all height! LOL...i'm glad i'm not that tall...(=

Here and there...

2008-06-12T22:34:00.004+08:00

Some one day while in office in May...

Suddenly, there is this smell, this feeling of the period..the period after my PSLE, everyday slacking at my bedok home (my grandparents') ...it's raining very heavily, the whole house is so dark and cold yet i feel so warm...sitting in the kitchen, chatting with my grandma and mummy while constantly nibbing on the food she had just cooked...Running to living room, watching the nw os donno 911 or some mjor issues...i wasn't really bothered by all those big happenings n news at that time of age instead i'm really enjoying the warmth and her cookings...such wonderful cooking skills she've got...skipping back and forth the kitchen to living room to nibble on the food...shouting across the living room to interrupt in both of their conversation....

Some short paragraph i extracted from an enlightening book...

" Life is a difficult experience and it's an on-going one. You keep learning until you did. Life is difficult but you keep thinking it should not be so, that it should be easy. Now i think that life should be difficult. Because that's the way we learn. "

5thJune2008-
Malaysia relatives came and we had a dinner with them at bedok south...great food great accompany followed by visiting of T3....

after dinner, sitting around chatting among cousins and my sanyi....all laughing so happily upon mentioning her...all smiles and laughter...but all the smiles and laughter soon fade.....it's only sighs, hias inside us tho none of us dare to show it out...there is just this moment where laughter and smiles just fades like as if we're guilty of smiling so happily when she's suffering like this...i was feeling bad nd awkward...cos i shouldn't have mention about her in our conversation...i shouldn't have! but it's jus so natural that she just appear in my mind and came out from my mouth...i still feel the guilty and the thought of feeling it's a pity...it's awaste....it's all still the same...i guess the love for her just grow even more...we desire more.... hais~

EastCoastCampin: 4 Rangers

2008-05-20T21:10:00.003+08:00

all the emo @#$%^& entries below are just updates...this entry is also updates la...

Last saturday, four of us (angel, jordan, felicia and i) met up at east coast park...went prepared with jackets and 2 beach mat....EastCoastPark is so bustily...with alot of ppl camping there...there aren't any slient quiet moment at all....it's unlike midnight, it seems like the day where e'one is so energetic....haha...i felt a waste not to book a pit there to have a BBQ cos there's so many ppl ard and atmosphere is wonderful! haha...a grp of kids were playing forefit and both felicia and i were the victim cos he asked for our numbers...and..hee..i'm bad as usual...

Kid: hey can i have your number?

Both felicia and i didnt bother to answer him and continue talking+walking in our usual fast speed cos we're late meeting jordan+angel...

Kid (oh my, he's persistent sia) : can i have your no.?
Me (frankly) : sorry i don want to play with you this kind of games...
Kid (still determine) : act act only la...pls...anyhow give la...
Me : anyhow give then 1 to 9 lor...

haha...he went back happily with his friends cheering....haha..ok it's ...... ya...dots..we're in a rush and didnt wanna bother him but he's soo persistent sia...don't ask me handsome anot cos we didnt even look at him...we only eye contact with each other, continue with our conersation and only thing in mind is MacDonald's cos tt's our destination, ur meeting place with jordan+angel...haha...we miss the stop and were late la..haha...

we chatted through out the night non-stop...is really talk non-stop..gossips, nag, complain, laugh blah blah...haha...tt was fun...it's not really a htht (HeartToHeartTalk)...cos we didnt go deep into our troubles, frustations and all...it's all random chats and i'm quite surprise that the four of us could actually random talk so much...it just link and link and link to alot of things..haha...

know what i don wanna let jordan to guess correctly that i've been looking for food to feed my itchy mouth but i just cant tahan and he got the chance to tease me again..tsk! cos i've been craving for Mac since friday....so when reach EastCoast looking at Mac, i couldn't resist that crave....so in the end i bought a meal sharing fries with jordan...haha...i've been looking for food the whole night before the Mac meal...LOL...

Night is short, time passes very fast that we didnt realise it's alr 4am...we squeeze on the 2 beach mats lying down, looking at the sky and stars...slowly sky turns, morning sets in...but we didnt see any sun rising...haha...and this time the sky isn't as beautiful as that time....First time taking public bus home after a overnight stayout...haha...tho tiring but it's fun..budget ar..haha..(=

Funeral Days

2008-05-19T22:05:00.005+08:00

28th April 2008

went to the funeral...all of us (cousins) were united in helping out..i was inside burning incense paper with my 18yr cousin..we chatted and i cry...chatted abt grandma's incident to now Siyi's death...we're all feeling the same...misses grandma, fear of forgetting her voice...he's losing faith in them who's staying above...we're still unable to accept and let her go...we're still afraid that she'll go...we're tired, we're sick of all these happening of sudden death of losing our love ones....everything happens out of expectation and defintely too sudden...

once again, lost confused extremely insecured....and it's double this time round....every doubtful feelings double....we had yet...our heart, our emotions had yet to recover from previous fall....now all our heart has the creation of another hole....

please.....please....i'm really desperately begging and praying to you that please treat us like this no more again....it's torturing...it f***ing sickening...please don fool us anymore....if u thgt u aren't fooling us, please give me a reason to believe you and understand all these happenings...i'm really stress and insecured about everything....i fear of being alone, i fear of falling asleep to welcome the new day...i wants everything to just freeze and stop here....i fear of moving forward to face more suddens....i don want anymore of it...i'm tired...we're all tired....aren't you tired? it's time for this drama to end right? it's boring to see the same things repeating right?

why do you have to treat us like this?

everyday waking up....i was hoping everything is a dream...i thgt i could see both my grandma and Siyi again...it all just occurred in my that few hours of dream...back it is not this way, nobody told me i'm dreaming, somebody tells me it's the truth, somebody pull me back to wants me to face the reality....i felt so useless, i felt so lifeless....

Waking up, it's another day, it's one more day to think to afraid to worry about handling this fact....it's one more day to face this crue reality...Since that night, i've not been sleeping well...A fear to fall asleep...constantly feeling insecured and lost...i didnt know what can i do but i'm just afraid to sleep....i'm hope i'm not sleeping and the world, the time just freeze...Freezed on the day where i'm happily enjoying everything that's around me, that i'm not losing anyone and i'm happy every single day...ha~ that's such a so naive, childish, unlike a reaching 20yrs young adult's thinking right?! that was so shameful huh...

i'm naive foolish....i get down easily by minor issues or wrongs....i feel discourage even at work ifi did some very minor mistakes...i'm in trouble...i mean i'm weird and thinking wrong on my mind...i know i might be sick....

maybe some might think i'm being over dramatic...but i didnt care...cos u didnt know what's exactly happening to my family....i don blame you but really please treasure every moments with your love ones...

Few of us stayed overnight on the last night....accompanying both of our cousins...talking crap...laughing together...waiting for the last day to send her off....i didnt know how we're feeling but it's contridicting...we had fun while together to pray to do rituals for my auntie...we joked, 'Falling in' for the rituals...haha...we used the given coins to get sweets tidbits from the mama shop beside...munching those 10cents long blackcurrant orange strawberry chewy sweets....we all had supper together, all squeezing in just one table...it was so back to our childhood times...we're so happy at those moments....everyone is enjoying it....we crap, laugh, joke, did stupid things together.....

Can time just freeze there? No...
30th April 2008: Another day just came....ha~ officially departing from her....

My dream family photo: 28-1-1

2008-05-02T19:54:00.003+08:00

On the 26th of April night, my SiYi left all of us...She left the family physically....she's gone...it was a sudden which all of us couldn't take it...we all were in the midst of a dinner when the news arrived....all our hearts dropped really the the bottom...nobody has the mood to do anyting....

She's happily holidaying with her family in Bangkok, and comin back on this day....But it all must and has to happen to her in the mrgn before they head off to airport....Her heart is in deep pain and my uncle brought her to hospital immdiately and discovering she got to be operated immediately as her vessel might explode anytime....ha~ managed to save her back once but she choose to leave on the second time...operation failed....news travelled to our ears in Singapore....and yup, alll our hearts were like...tears flow...nobody has any more mood for dinner or any other thing....i did pray, we all did pray immediately upon knowing the news of her in danger....we were all at the temple place, we prayed immediately....ha~...what's the use of praying...

"Pray, pray for what ar pray...got help meh?!"

that's what i told sinyee on the phone...i shouted...i'm crying like crazy...i was so angry, lost totally frustrated and going out of my mind....i didnt know what's happening...once and again, one by one...all out of a sudden....i'm just so tired..tired of everything, i'm so worried about everything...my grandpa my grandma...will anybody know what kind of @##$$&% feeling is that? it's so insecure....i really wish to die and end all these...i don wan to recieve anymore of this nonsense....ya tt's selfish and foolish...i thgt i'm not as close to her as to the other aunties...but her death is still...it still hits my heart greatly.....however i might not like her actions or not as close to her, she's still part of my family photo, she also dote me alot since young, she's my auntie, i respect her....she has a poor life all along...kidney failure, she managed to fight thrg it with dialysis and ironically, she die because of heart attack....wth right....her first time on plane, first time travelling with whole family, first time travelling overseas and yet this have to happen.....

i was really crying fiercely, thinking of alot of alot......was really worried...my grandpa, grandma....i really feel insecure, i fear that the next day, anyone of them will also be gone out of sudden...

26th April 2008 - My dream perfect family photo which yet had to be taken have minus one more person, my Si Yi...i pray my uncle and cousins to be really strong....We'll be there for you guys for anything!

When will it stop? Another hole in the heart...when can it be mend? Never....

Mysteriously weird

2008-04-19T14:09:00.003+08:00

i've already forgotten what i wants to blog about....

Work is still great cos i'm able to keep myself out of house and being busy...but last 2 days due to both (k508) Cindy and my high efficiency and effectiveness....we have got nothing to do after lunch! haha...in the end i've to go ard asking for jobs...LOL....

Thursday...

Work was fine in the mrgn until some unknown-out-of-nowhere sadness came...started missing her again..damn...That day I looked for my facial auntie and so she asked about her....hat can i always say when everybody ask how's her condition and all...

Everyone (who's concern and worried): how's your grandma?

Me (know everyone's concern but i cant say any other things): ha~ like that lor...waiting only...

and i thgt and hope she wun go any further like usually when she asked about her condition...but for this particular session, surprisingly she just continue and continue tho she had spotted my uncomfortable facial expression....that day is mysteriously weird cos i got the feeling that 'i dont care if u wanna hear anot, i just wants to continue...' yes she's giving me these feeling...i can feel something is trying to make me listen to what she got to say and get smthg into my stubborn brain to accept what it is!

Tears couldn't be hold back as images kept flashing pass, and it keep flowing out from the corner of my eyes and she just keep cleaning it away from me and didnt stop talking tho she knows i'm crying very jialatt already....at first i still thgt she wun be able to see the tears when it started flowing cos she's like so enthu in continous sharing with me her mother's story and she didnt stop hen i expected her to stop when she saw my tears....it's really weird....she just clean it for me and continue (that's when i know she can see my tears and she doesn't wants to stop).....

i know i know there's something or somebody donno where trying to help me in this thing....i've got this strong feeling but it's me myself....is myself that i can't or i don't want to accept...i'm like rejecting alot of your kind enlightening words....i appreciate it but i didnt know why i just cannot....i just cant....

she is telling me alot....alot are unpredictable...life...that's life....what she told me C*H really sucks! and i totally agree...haha..i was so concern about face where there's one moment i really couldn't hold myself and i really cry...and i quickly cam myself down thinking...Hey i'm not crying alone with nobody looking at....it's so shameful to unable to controm youself right...haha...and i deep breathe to stop that so ridiculous crying...haha...

and at the month end, it all started...another one...hais.........when will you stop fooling us?!!!

Schenker

2008-04-15T20:46:00.003+08:00

Aiyoyoyo...i very lazy to update leh....

ok currently started working at new place...Schenker at ChangiSouth....woah fun...nice ppl nice evironment i like! *winks winks* (= lol...i take shuttle bus to the nearest station e'day after work...it gave me the Shanghai's smell and feeling!!! LOL...next the company's canteen...OMG...hahaha...yeah...Shanghai feeling...and the filing storeroom...Ahhhhhh...Felicia, Jasmine, SiewJie!!! REMEMBER?!?! we always slack there in the air con (old one) and the stuffy (new, in front of toilet de) store room...lol...we always chitchatt till shiok shiok!! hahaha...with those cupboards....hahaha...i enjoy gg to that place in Schenker can!! haha...and have been visiting toilet numerous times and got alot of times almost wanted to shout out and talk to the person beside my cubicle! LOOOOL...i guess i don't have to say what's the content right girls! HAHAHAHA...

Last week, FOC ended...with graduates cheering cheers of 05/06FO till 08/09FO!!! we all shouted 050****I GRADUATED!!!

my last last time of TP School Song!!!
*Temasek's Me, Temasek's You, We're a team~!

my last last time of Chicky Dance!!!
*Dede..dedede...Dede...dedede...De.....

my last last time of Tp MASS DANCE in the Sports Complex!!!!
*Meerrrrry MOooooorrrre...Open Open Close Close....

my last time of hand signature....
*There i see my Poly.....

LOL....05/06 FOC is the camp that marks my start of TP school life...I'm in the empire Krypton...Befriended HuiMin, Karine, Sharon, Ethel, Tobby, Seng, Jason, Cannonz etc....andthis camp really creates an impact on me...it makes me become more outgoing and i started constantly joining alot of school events...My TP LIFE is so colourful tho might not be as colourful as others....but i thgt it's already very RAINBOW enough to make me don wanna graduate, don wanna leave TP!!!

Life in TP is really great...i thought it was always the BEST POLYTECHNIC in Singapore!!! Imagine, this year's FOC participant are too much till TPSU got to reject them! Guess TP's name of having the greatest camp and friendliest polymates have spread really wide and far! haha...

haha...i have got no mood to continue further about graduation...maybe wait till one day certain hours where the feeling is there then i'll blog about it....((=

Dinner with Bwp

2008-04-13T14:02:00.002+08:00

Met up with Bwp after both Sandy and Piwen got back from Japan, Kumamoto....dine at PS, Mathanan Fish? i donno how to spell la...smthg like FishnCo...chit-chatted..gossip, Jsxp, knct etc...both of them got each of us a 'FU' from Kumamoto's shrine...Vv of course got smthg that has got to do with her academic....Felicia smthg at family and health...KimBee's cos the 'FU' just suited her somehow but they donno wat's the meaning of it...lol...They got me smthg that have got to do with Love, r/s which they thgt i lack of...haha...it was cute la the thingy but it's just too pinky and girly for me...but THANKS la!! haha.. (=

Friends come, stay and go..Has Trust ever been there?

2008-04-13T13:22:00.003+08:00

Misunderstanding cleared..(=

Sandy, pls don think you can read my mind, dont think you know what i'm thinking cos i can tel you, you'll never know what i'm thinking! cos i also don unstd my mind....

Tai Tai for a day...

2008-04-10T00:07:00.008+08:00

Morning: Tanjong Pagar Interview

dragged myself up as early as 7.15am..bath and off to Novena to get my application form frm SPY cos she help me print...thanks ar! then rush to TanjongPagar....i've good sense of direction...haha...interviewed..tho i'm not tt keen....i didnt recieve their call...haha...cos my hp low batt for the whole afternoon...had Subway breakfast...Nice nice...travelled to CentralMall cos i wanted to go TheLegend at FortCanning for Guest Service Assistant walk in interview...still early so i slacked at Starbucks and played with my uncle's PSP for almost 2hrs...he lends to me cos his kid got to focus for exam..hehe...drank JavaChip and regretted cos too sweet...

Afternoon: TheLegend at FortCanning

near to time, i walked n figure my way to FortCanning and climbed the hill and steps under that big sun, passing those foreign workers with no other humans ard me....oh my...so dangerous...i majiam like pri sch kids or tourist having heritage trail...look at trees, insects etc...sweat of course! luckily i didnt wear heels...all thks to sandy for telling me to drop at ClarkQuay....shld have drop at PS and walk there...nearer and safer..haha...aiya k la i know u hao xin la...

reached, found out it's for permanent and no other offers for temporary position...left...well...ha...

while walking to the main road, ~~tears~~ almost come out cos upset...tho i'm prepared and have alr predicted that the offer shldn't be for temporary...and it's my carelessness that i didnt call before i came....but i didnt know why i just so stubborn n persistent and came all the way to walk in and try still with the hope yet knowing it'll be a sad outcome...silly huh...stupid right....before the tears can come out, i thgt it'll be damn real silly n stupid to cry over this matter...sooooo i hold on and swallow back all my tears....haha...i donno why i feel upset tho knowing all these....and i myself have alr predicted and prepare...while finding my way there, both my heart n mind constantly telling me it wun be a temporary job....but donno where this 'thingy' come from just tell me to go try n see and my leg just continue to walk n walk to the destination...hais...

THANKS SPY!!!

sms-ed SPY abt all this...and felt regreted...lol...cos it's so pai seh...hee...k i know ..... anyhow take a bus n see where it brings me to...dropped at Wheellock...went Borders, walked to Taka Kinokuniya...took a book and started reading...haha...surprisingly i read for 1-2hrs! LOL...it's amazing can! lol...the book is reallly too interesting for me...it lightens my mood...i smiled and laughed to myself while reading it...LOL...hahahaha...cos i totally agree to most of its content and i see myself in what the author describe...HAHA...so i bought the book and another jap book (which i've longed for)...reading tt interesting book and purchasing it...spending $60 really brightens my day! yup both books total up to that amount! ..... LOL...all females are the same! haha...i actually spent such huge amt on BOOKS! lol...(=

after that, i shopped ard Taka, Heeren and walked all the way to PS alone....with no hp, nobody able to reach me and only i could call them...haha...the feeling is so great! cos i feel so free like a bird! don care abt the ppl ard me....haha...woah...SHIOK! I'M LOVING IT! haha...first time which i actually enjoy so much of shopping alone...haha...i feel so Tai-Tai today cos all i do i slack, spent time wandering around and spend $$$....happen to come across this interesting and fun shop...MakeWithLove at PS Level 3....shopped inside very long cos trying to get some inspirations from there...haha...SECRET! BU NENG SUO DE MIMI!!! hehe...

ok e'tin seems so interesting to me today...haha..maybe there's some wire up in my head got connected wrongly...but tt's good cos at least i'm HAPPY! i'm feeling GAY! LOL...lalala....hahahaha...i'm so happy that i'm happy! ..... =D

7pm, met Sandy to ArtFriend, PastaMania dinner, joined her grp of JSXP friends...funny jokes and scenes at arcade...y ppl so enjoy gg arcade? LOH PI WEN thanks huh for your recommendation...but i enjoy SINGLEHOOD...and luckily Sandy is still the choice!!! LMAO!!!!!! met Cindy after her work and i bye to them...travel home...Cindy's tempting me to go MOS this saturday! shld i? shld i not?

SINYEE u very BUSY leh!!!

Oh today i did a good deed, i gave my seats to an old lady on the bus...lol...cos i usually don't and don't have tt courage....haha...smthg is reallly weird abt me not only today but for the past few days!

Yesterday::::

cos cos...i feel like there's smthg bothering me but i didnt know what is it...i just feel insecured and having the feeling that smthg is gonna take place...but i don't know what's tt...feeling kind of lost, donno what am i searching for..even if i knew what i need and wants, there's no pull force affecting me to encourage me...hmmm....this shld be due to my lack of determination...haha..

i know i'll get emo if i'm gg to let my mind anyhow 'fly'....so i cannot think anything but my mind is too free that i've to find things to think! ...... k contradicting and confusing...all the above symptons must be cause by being too bored from being too freee!

i control, contain, prevent cos i don wanna get emo or be sad...simply, i just wants to be happy.... ((=

but nth for me to be happy leh...mind body all wrong...wires all entangled...LOL...what exactly is botherin me huh? i know smthg is hiding somewhere in the head or heart trying to tell me smthg... dots i know...k conclusion, i'm really not the kind of Nua-At-Home person!

**Better Single Than Sorry by JenSchefft...

**Yakuza by ShokoTendo....

Recollection: Secondary School Years

2008-04-03T23:17:00.006+08:00

Accompanied Cindy to get contact lense, LeeHwa interview...as usual i'm her mobile street directory...she just follow me...Did you open your BIG eyes and see where i'm gg? LOL...cos i thgt she and sinyee is always following blindly just like you, SPY! haha...ok she passed the interview but she decided to backout...haha... (=

Next, lunched and travelled to RafflesPlace SingtelBuilding with 2 donuts + bubble gum to find RonaldNg and YewSuan...haha...passed them the food, chatted till their head passby and we dismiss...haha...ok...YewSuan is finally at least BIGGER in physical...looks better...i thgt he's better looking than his before TekKo image! =X hahaha...Hmmm...RonaldNg, woah...near to 2yrs since i last saw him at Cindy's 18th Bday...Him...Gave me that...Ok become mature and got those ManSmell already...LOL...i mean the feeling he gave me la...omg...Wo men zhang da le!!! ...... haha...But there's still smthg both of them that remain the same la...haha...Anw hope to meet them up soon again! hehe.. =D

We slacked at CoffeeBean till ard 5pm...chatted alot..did alot of hui wei-ing and xiang dang nian! haha...we flew all the way back to sec1,2,3,4!!! haha...cant help it but to laugh at every small little details...HAHA...rumours...childish acts...unnecessary nonsense quarrels...teachers....etc. haha...was really really funny..i seldom do so much of recollections with cindy....at most the backtrack time will be just a few months back or back to year1 only....maybe now things changed...some or alot of miss-es here and there....trying to figure out what happen but it's just useless...

secondary 1....marvellous class combi of teachers + classmates....and i made a great friend...PSY..

secondary 2....woooh...chaotic complicated group...new friends....closer friendship with the guys...omg keep singing JayChou's songs...dot...i knew this new girl popping out of no where self intro herself to me, CLLB! LMAO...

secondary 3....haha...very glad ron,chris,amos still same class as me...new form of cliques....lotsa of memories....great class...i gave an oscar award to one dearest superb drama actor of esss...bazzare... (thinking back, i was silly)

secondary 4....that 3 guys still same class as me! lol...ys became my gossip crapping partner and caused me to always kana caught chattering and finally i got my seats changed to one corner sitting with fabian and amanda...haha...rumours...chaotic year....childish (haha, but who is mature at that time).. (=

* we still laughed and smile over your silly stupid funny entertaining acts....i recalled...ha-ha..all was redundant...cos in the end fate just brings this kind of ending to our story....but i'm glad my decision is right...i didnt regret anything..at least what i want to rmb is just all the happy moments...only happy images flash pass me....i smile....i'm glad... (= *

Of course, how would we miss out bgr?! haha...oh sinyee u miss it! haha...all abt cindy..haha..cos i've blank sheet still...HAHA...maybe i know the reason why...too persistent in own thinking? stubborn...'hard-hearted' and 'niao' in giving chances? tho now and then, loneliness or 'sian-ness of single' will suddenly pop out but they only last few days and i'm back to my happy single! LOL...in any way, i'm seriously happy with my free singlehood...unless otherwise any pop-ups, i'll then see how it is...haha... ((=

S.M.I.L.E =D

Vivi's 20th, Countdown

2008-04-03T21:39:00.006+08:00

15thMarch2008, Saturday

It's another Saturday...this is gonna be a wonderful one...cos we are carrying out our long planned birthday surprise BBQ for Vivi...BUT it was all spoiled by one sms! ...... anyway great BBQ! Haha...so long didn't got any BBQ...hehe....was really fun..... HAPPY 20th VIVI !!

17thMarch ..... onwards

I was very extremely looking forward to this week cos first there's only 4 working days which is a bonus and happiness for all office workers can!! Lol....

Next is the new job interview which I've been looking forward to...

Next I could cut my hair after tahan-ing with the long fringe, messy out of shape bob hair! Haha..

Next is dinner with the Rangers at the CheesecakeCafe...Hehe...

Next Next Next is I can start packing my luggage!! Haha....

Lastly, the days to Bangkok trip is getting nearer (actually is the days to my last day of work)!! Lalala...hohoho....haha...

But I thgt things aren't gg very smooth..first there's some news about some idiotics traveling into my ears..which was arrgh....haha...next was extra stress abt choosing which courses for which uni upon knowing that the dateline is by end of the month..but I'm left with 30th and 31st to request the printing of transcript and all otherwise I've got to wait for next yr intake! .... shit...got advices from some friends and their words didn't comfort and make me more relax and calm...haha...

THANKS! ((=

5thMarch - 9thMarch

2008-03-21T00:33:00.005+08:00

5thMar2008-Wednesday
I claimed back my remaining half day and went Vivo with felicia...thgt of watching Ps, I Love You but there's no early tim slot thus we went Vivo as i've promised her the day before...visited that cheap shop which she mentioned she saw on TV....and it was not nice at all lor...she still say TV advertise till like very nice! dots....shopped the whole Vivo and of course CandyEmpire! hehe...

Sandy i'm getting the bad habit of yours like buyin every small little items that i like...tsssk...i've spent and waste so much of my money! haha..ok after some shopping, settle down at some place and started chatting again...random topics but bothers me quite alot...TSK....

And we came to a topic where its about my fate of becoming some mistress or some third party kind of bitch...haha...I'm clueless why we always come to this same topic...oh she was telling me she read from some book abt eyes and all....so the type of eyes that the book is describing just reminds her of my eyes...initially I thgt I was always the only one who thgt I would be one of these kind of bitch but now with one more confirmation which is so strong....i start to worry....haha...it quite bothers me actually...worrying I'll really become one of those kind..which is totally what I hate....

Trying hard to find excuses or others to assure and support my stand that I wun be one....haha....

First, I dislike this kind of r/s (tho it gonna be exciting but it's not gonna last long) and I wun like this kind of (third party) person to appear in my own r/s so why I wld be one? Know what she replied me? Sometimes it's not up to your choice....!! Oh my god lor..her so strong agreement makes me more bothered by this issue cos I myself already have this strong feelings and now adding one more 'confirmation'...dots....see I care about how others look at me, imagine my cliques, lesbie, besties, friends, family all view me in those 'coloured' eyes...it's not gonna to work out in any way for me! lol...it will be like living w/o friends and family, how can it be?! That's not life! Haha...it's not gonna to happen right?! *pray* hahaha...

Do you ppl have any kind of strong feelings for particular issues and got really worried like me? Or it had really happened? Tell me..Tag me!! haha.. (=

8thMar2008-Saturday

Rangers cycling changed to Waterhorse midnight movie at TheCathay....all working personnel (mindy, angel and me) are too tired for physical activity like cycling (up the highways)...haha....

angel missed the gathering again..after the movie, we sat outdoors chatting before mindy got herself a cab home...The rest of us continue chatting and walked to Esplanade..i was too tired and fell asleep while sitting outside the NoSignboard restaurant..Finally it's ard 5 6+ am in the mrgn..thinking we could take the earliest train home but it's still way too early for the first train to start operating...Soooo....in the end together with the couple, Felicia and I took cab home... How meaningful isn't it? ..... haha...cos we all just wanna hangout with all rangers but have got limited ideas...went home, slept like a pig....(=

Dinner with Arthur

2008-03-09T17:55:00.006+08:00

2ndMarch2008

i had half day...or shld i say a quarter day leave? i supposingly should have a half-day leave but it was all destroyed by some last minutes assignments that i've got to help Jessie to finish...and so my hlaf day leave was left with a quarter! ..... no choice, i still carry on takin that quarter day leave because i've promise to meet felicia and she has waited too long for me already...so shopped around before gg to MarinaSquare to meet Arthur and all the OSIP mates...

Had Waraku..we chatted till the air-con was switched off and we're the last customers to leave the place...took pictures outside and we headed home...a short simple dinner gathering but alot of memories flash backs...haha...laughed alot...... (=

That hole in my heart...

2008-03-09T17:19:00.004+08:00

1stMarch2008
Fourth day at work.....it's a Saturday!!! Oh man...it is raining so heavily, such a cold weather to hide inside my comforter till late morning.....but I'm waking up on the usual time like office hours as early as 7am to go to work...the roads are so desserted la..still have to share umbrella with strangers to cross street..and in the end, I'm stuck inside office alone for 6hrs!!!

Visited grandma after work and had dinner together with my Sanyi (family) and Xiaoyi (family)....We went LongHouse and had a long chatting session before gg home..it was really fun...we chatted from how parents, each aunties and uncles got together, their dating process and gossips..haha..next was about cousins, my siblings and my babies time...our for known behaviours and blah....I don need a pacifier, just my thumb will do..haha..a lot of memories flash back la....we always had to queue in front of grandpa to collect money because he'll distribute money to each of his grandchildren whenever he got his pay....hehe...=D Who he doted most on and blah....

The stay over nights at grandma's house....she always tell us stories and her children's childhood......who she don like and why she don't like...haha....when ah li and I were talking abt how she told us and all.....we automatically knows her actions and all..we just laughed very happily because of her cuteness...we just miss it......we miss her.........there's no need to act out or do the action when she's taking or telling us story....we all knew it...we just laughed together with images in all our mind..really there's a lot of images flash past in my brain....it's all like in a filmstrip...i could rmb my primary school times in her house..always staying over at her house for the reason that I've got to reached school early the next day for HouseTraining....she'll wake me up and all.....she's like my mother.... =)

Hais....we chatted very long....we all missed the past......the happy moments......we do still have happy moments every now and then, just like this simple dinner....but it's just different....ha~ =) Next we came to a point where we're thinking of booking a bus for the whole family to go Genting together...this is what I've always wished for..but now all had to be delayed and it's gonna be different.....I was telling my mother and Xiaoyi the other day of taking a big family photo..and I came to found out, actually my Xiaoyi had thg of it long ago but it just didn't happen and now all this happens...less one person...came to think of it.....wasteful......regrets........ =\

I'm not trying to be emo again...when I think of this, my mind is like keep telling me, "I want her to be in the picture with us...it's a whole big family picture, she can't not be in the picture together with us..i have a grandpa so i do need a grandma!" ..... but this just wun come true....i know my what my mind is telling me, just shows acts of stubbornness....

I WANT A WHOLE BIG FAMILY PHOTO HANGING IN MY ROOM, IN MY HOUSE LIVING ROOM, IN EVERY AUNTIES' HOUSE.....

maybe I'm being naïve or childish or acting just like some (qianjingsiewjie) rich overly-doted girl or princess....but that's what I really think and hope for....i have a too perfect picture for my family....i don mean my family is not good enough....but donno why HARMFUL or HURTINGS or ACCIDENTS or LOSING MY LOVE ONES or whatever that is NEGATIVE are not at all in my dictionary for this family.....maybe didn't thgt of it but I didn't take it serious.....i didn't think much of it...untill it happens.........i don't think my loved ones beside me will die or anything bad will occur on them....but it just happens....tt's y I'm now seriously afraid of losing any of my loved ones that are all around me, always around for me...losing one is like taking a part of my heart away.....now there's already a gigantic hole..it's difficult to fill it up unless with the same identical living person..... ha~ ........ (=

I know some friends will not like this side of me..being so pessimistic or whatsoever....no longer the old me.....I know....i too know I'm no longer the same and I hate it too...but I just have this foolish thinking that if it's for the sake of an important person in my life, it think it's worth it..i don regret becoming the now me tho I hate it......Okay, confusing.....don't get what I mean? Then don't bother to try unstd-ing it....cos nth useful.... (=

can anyone fill that hole in my heart?

Cheesecake Cafe

2008-03-09T17:01:00.003+08:00

27thFeb2008 – 28thFeb2008
First day at work was..Rush!!

Second day was..Lost Confused Stress and the first pimple pops out!! Can I die?! Haha..Okay, don wanna talk about this again cos I think I've complained numerous time to my friends already...so most of them knows abt this new job..Anyway, my job scope involves staff salary and issuing cheques, aiya anything that have got to do with using company's $$$$ la..omg..BIG REPONSIBILITY and it means HUGE PRESSURE!!!

29thFeb2008
Third day at work was slightly better but mood still aren't feeling better..and here came the birth of the second pimple.....resulting from the stress and insufficient amount of rest....HOWEVER, after calling my agent to check out when's my last day of work, my mood literally changed 180degree.....haha.....in anyway, third day's work was done according to my own agar-ration and own reference notes...What can I do other than praying daily that hopefully nth would be done wrongly..haha...

I managed to pass these few days successfully w/o breaking down with felicia's encouragement..lol...your msg really encouraged me a lot..believe me, I still have your sms in my phone..of course, my few other friends also encouraged and made me buck up and just continue to try non-stop without giving up! I'm unsure why I've become so easily demoralize and not with the right attitude and no self motivation…okay motivation, I've always not having a lot of it..but I'll feel at least a little motivated, optimistic abt my current situation and think in another point of view to console myself..But donno why this time, I'm like this..really feel like running out of the office and disappear, otherwise I'll just break down in front of the office ppl..i've got trouble managing my emotions and mind right?! I'm getting my emotions to take over me right?! Anyway, .... THANKS!!! You ppl are always great!

After work, reached home at ard 8plus and Felicia came to fetch me at ard 9plus10 and headed to tanshandi's block to fetch both her Jies....I still crave for late night outs! Lol..We head to Siglap CheesecakeCafe......Along the way there, there was never a quiet moment in the car..majiam WET MARKET in Felicia’s tt bright chilli red Toyota..Both her Jies were talking so loudly and where Felicia replied them in her blasted voice too..hais..

One moment, Jieyi and Felicia were arguing the way of giving right accurate directions, next moment, Sandy (sitting at the back seat with me) interrupted both of them and direct Felicia like she's on a taxi! Lol....she takes too much taxi and whenever she's on a car's backseat, she goes uncle in front turn left right go straight etc...haha....Everyone was so excited and couldn't stop talking and arguing about anything and everything...The Jies of Felicia couldn't help it but worried if they could reach the CheesecakeCafe or home safely to meet their parents in a full piece....haha....Felicia's driving skills were doubt by them.....HAHA!!

Reached CheesecakeCafe and smthg embarrassing occurred which I couldn't say it here otherwise Felicia's gg to blacklist me for always being big mouth-ing announcing her faceless incident online.....The ambience at the Cafe was wonderful and comfortable..saw TP senior and Felicia's poly 3yrs, THOUGHT-looks-like-actor eye candy!! LOL...we were all laughing like ah siao over there..I was the first to get home as I got to work the next mrgn....Hais....

Fortune telling

2008-02-26T19:19:00.007+08:00

Slacking day....met felicia and went back to school to collect the transcript...ya i only collected it today! lol...so i've just posted it today...ha~ got abit don care de attitude huh....we had brunch at mensa....really ate alot cos have to wait for mindy....so we started our conversation....from religion to OSIP....thgt alot of shanghai funny memories....it' was very funnnnny and truly memorable...HAHAHAHA....the time spent in school is so relaxing and i go ard laughing at students for having to study for their papers! hahaha...i know it's bad but i can't help it..=X hahaha...k la...i xing zai le huo la....haha...

mindy came to fetch us and we went to suntec cos i thgt natas fair is held there! ..... mindy got her car scratched...lol...so we just went suntec to buy tape to tape the broken light...LOL...and went to bugis for dessert....EAT again....have been eating for whole afternoon with felicia! the dessert is not bad...at LiangSeah street...i had hot almond+sesame paste while felicia had the cold one and mindy had hot sesame paste...plus carrot cake and cheecheongfan...felicia's treat..also donno for wat reason! lol...and we chatted alot about past live to past to present to future to donno where...haha...fortune telling..to be believe? i'll ban xing ban yi...haha...

she drove us home at ard 5.30 cos the car has got to reach home early...haha...anw i've also promise to have dinner at home...so all guai guai go home early lor...haha...anw friends, i got a job...got to start work tml mrgn! is $7/hr (no $$$ for leave taken) or $1100/mth more worth? with inclusion of CPF for both....

Today is a great meaningful day for the 3 of us! haha...it's more meaningful than rotting at home!! haha...((=

Stranger chatted with me for 2hrs!

2008-02-26T00:17:00.004+08:00

Early mrgn, travelled to GentingLane by train then by bus125 then all the way with my bus11....i walked the whole industrial area, asking around, asked numerous security guard and finally i get to that ulu building....and that agent gave me the building's OLD name la! .... i walked past that building numerous time and i didnt know that actually was the building that i've been looking for.....

ok interviewed and answer will be known to me after lunch time....actually i don intend to accept this job if there is any other offers, better accessible convenient transport which i can get in the later day...and weird enough, none called! even they called, the interview is like not today....and i got that VERY STRONG feeling and that this ulu company will recruit me! and my feeling is true la! they called and i've got to go all the way back (cos i'm stuck at ToaPayohLibrary reading HerWorld) to tampines to meet the agent and sign contract blah blah...

BUT...HENG...another agent called and i went down for another interview at tanjong pagar....the pay is better and easier to find! company also more known! lol..so i cancel the meeting with the previous agent...he got that want to shout but cannot shout yet have to be polite reply...LOL...but i'm really pai seh abt the pung sei la...haha....

oh anyway, i'm spending like i've a rich parents, never ending bank account, i've got bird nest or gold mountain etc....cos i bought HerWorld magazine at $6 (which is purely just for me to pass time where library has plenty), had a $7 lunch (unnecessary), bought sourjellybeans (which is NOT AT ALL sour and it's $8!), gummy bear ($2-cos it reminds me of childhood), $6 dinner, $10 ezlink top-up....see...spent alot of unnecessary money.....and i've not got any of my pay!

today is really weird...i've this customer who chatted with me abt her problems for 2hrs!! but she did bought smthg from me la....anw i also have got nth to do...so i listen and chatted with her for that 2hrs.....of course i did look out for passing customers....i didnt know how true her words are....but i just believe as it does no harm to me anyway...lol...by the way she's also CANCER la! EMO horoscope! she's suffering from depression? lol...i'm not sure...but she does still contain alot of positive right thinking! haha...so shldn't be depression...she's somehow like me direct, indecisive and alot thinkings are similar....GUYS~ HAHA....ok anyway she help me pass time la.....great person...

while on the way home, donno what makes me suspect if she's really someone that just came to chat with me and vanish later...or she doesn't exist at all? or she's one of felicia's friend? LOL....i thgt i was dreaming leh....maybe cos i couldn't believe there is actually existence of such kind of ppl who can chatted with a stranger for 2hrs....unbelieveable....cos i've not met anyone like her....cos i cant chat with someone for so long and moreover it's about her xin shi.....it's xin shi that we are chatting about leh...cos i didnt share with her mine....i don even do that with my close friends so not even her...haha..

met up with felicia after work at tmart and update abit and i reached home 11.45..before 12midnight..hais...when will that stop?!

Free me!! LOL

2008-02-22T15:14:00.006+08:00

Yesterday afternoon, met up with Jieyi together with Felicia...went bugis to buy Felicia's watch and they both accmpanied me to RafflesPlace for an interview...and so conincidentally, singapore is so small that i met km, hw and joel there too....DOTS....i think alot of companies urgently need admin staff and i'm in luck of job opportunities...because i've recieved at least 5 calls from different agent since mrgn....they got me job but it requires me to start work next mon but i can't! urgh!!

i rejected the sentosa job and tt person was like quite unhappy as i didnt inform them earlier that i'm not gg for the interview anymore....but i also don have their contact so also can't inform....feel so bad but i've to do this..lol..cos if not i'm unable to go for the raffles place one....

oh ya...i've decided to quit that sales job and go for an admin.....cos work more days and thus more $$$...haha...the boss is really great to let me quit by end of feb but needed my help on the 24,25march...which i didnt know if i can make it...hais....hope a good pay job will come looking for me and allows me to start work on march!!! *PRAY*

anw ytd's gathering is for both Jieyi and Me (two libra) to 'attack' the cancer....cos she kana suan the whole day!! we 2 really enjoy it...LOL...over the dinner, we are like discussing abt our recent weird nightmares..haha..hope e'tin will be fine...it's just a dream! haha...ppl be careful, felicia actually do have lots of friends ard her, you all just didnt notice only! if she's mumbering to herself, don interrupt her conversations with her friends!! WAHAHAHAHA....Don worry my friend is perfectly fine in terms of physical, emotions and psychologically!!! all joking only la...her reaction for tt whole day was really funny, i just couldn't stop laughing over it....

oh my...i've got no programmes and have got nothing to do today!!! how how how...today is the only day of the week i'm at home la and i couldn't take it! .... on purpose, i still leave this day off from any programme so i can stay at home, proving to mum that i can don always run around outside and have dinner with family...and who knows...my mother got programmes, sister work, dad must be working la....left only me and bro, in addition i've got to settle both of our dinner! i've alr eate maggie for my lunch which is the last last last preferred choice in my mind la...i wun want another maggie meal for my dinner! arrrrgh!!!

I really not suitable to be stuck at home!!! My legs need to be free!!! LOL.. :S

Steamboat with Ex-Bwp

2008-02-20T00:49:00.004+08:00

Afternoon, accompanied SPY to KellyServices...and didnt had any outcome with KellyServices la...lol..waste of time....some more go all the way to TanjongPagar! haha...looking at the time, it's still early so we both were deciding where to go....so we went Chinatown cos she wanted to go to the DIY belt shop....so brought her there....she had dessert while i bought "WuCoq" (fried yam with cha siew fillings)...nice....had it since young...haha..

travelled up to level 3 then to 2 then back to 3 again....haha...the belt shop auntie v moodswing...lol...kind of attitude today....tt time when we went she at first also giving us those ai mai face with her attitude....so we continue to shop other areas since this time round, there's alot of shop open....went to this shop with alot of retro, classic, oriental kind of things..and saw a lot of clip-on earrings.....woah....felicia happy....and the longer we stay there, the more surprises we got....alot of diff things.....nice and special...gonna visit there again! due to time constraint and to prevent adding more items into the basket, i urge felicia to go off soon...LOL...

went piwen's house, had steamboat and LoHei with the girls....LoHei: get rich bf and get married...earn more more $$$...get a police bf.....get into Uni...blah blah blah...haha...can identify that weird wish is from whose mouth ar....police bf! ..... her criteria....LOL...

SPY went off early and the rest of us gossips non-stop....lol..of course did updates, chat abt future....like again...*roll eyes* it's the in topic now la....at least among my circle of friends...haha...oh piwen's room ceiling pasted alot of stars that glow in the dark...haha...we off the room's light and look at it for ard 10mins...haha...it's beautiful! (=

First Earring: Gold, clip on..$5.90

Second Earring: Stud, $3.50 (alot more of similar designs...)

Third Earring: Orange Plastic Flower, Clip on, $3.50 (like when young, those children toys)

Singing

2008-02-18T23:45:00.003+08:00

Mindy, Jordan, PeiZhen, Felicia and I went singing at ChaiCheeCC....ok..nth much to comment actually...whatever Jordan thgt of singing, we girls have already put into the list already...lol....seems like there aren't much to sing about huh? ok is we donno how to sing....

Jordan and Felicia singing can make it..lol....they both are the better ones i think...i really enjoy Amei's song....all the old old powderful song....LOL...after singing, mindy drove us to LiangSeah street and ate at hongkong cafe...we girls left first as mindy got to return car back home by 8pm...haha...

i went to look for cindy and sinyee at CS and chat till 10plus....hais....everything will be fine.....everyone goes thrg really really bad times...but i donno how to get out...lol...by being POSITIVE in everything???? haha...=\

Aunt's House Visit - How does hungry feel like?

2008-02-17T22:10:00.003+08:00

one weekend is enough to double the 'already-over' weight on mine! ....

saturday night was hose visit to my ah gu's house after visiting my grandma....all went there together with grandpa...had steamboat....still ok...tt's my second time of steamboat for this 2008 CNY....buuut...it's meat and balls again....lol...haha...ltr can cocktail....i made with my cousin, putting half a bag of 3kg ice and a big ice chunk.....is it call chunk? i donno..lol...aiya anw it's just big la...haha...CNY goodies of course...she bought alot of korean and DISNEY MICKEY MOUSE items! omg...CUUUUUUUUTEEEEEEEE!! haha..but she's (my auntie) not giving us! haha..all my auntie and i so feel like 'stealing' home la....even the cookies are so cute, it's tiny gingerbradman...lol...

had mahjong with the elders.....urgh, i didnt win any at all! urgh, no luck...nvm then i change to the next room...the blackjack kids...lol..all kids playing..LOL...kids as small as 7yrs also playingk! haha...tho didnt win any money....i still had a great laugh with my cousins (ah li, nic)...lol...cos i join halfway and sat in between them...and the kind of card we got really sucks...haha...it's like those, 14,15,16 kind of card....our cards can be lined up together...lol...it's really funny...so i stopped since i was damn not in gambling luck...haha....and what i do? walk from room to room with food in my mouth and hands! HAHAHA...i can blame nobody but my greedy mouth!! haha...

ended with Sakae Lou Hei....tidy up and all went home to zzz...lol...it's so full till i can't even burp or i can feel that those food is vomitting out when i burp! =X gross right...hahaha....

Sunday was visit to Eryi's house...had vegetarian meal.....goodies again....my mum and aunties all got smthg home from her house.....cos eryi's moving and thus clearing stuff...so all got lots of things back home....none for me..cos i see nth suitable! haha...see who say shopping must pay money then can get things you need?! haha...Evening was at grandma there and back home after dinner...

So it was another day of FUUUUUUULLL stomach home~ i don't feel the hungry feeling before sia for these 2 days! haha...(=

Disappointing -shake head-

2008-02-16T01:10:00.004+08:00

Ccom interview..........GREAT! :)

it was more of a chatting session with the 'first-time-meet' lecturer...lol...busy, happily chatting about SHANGHAI!! woah...LOL....she gave all of us an A!! she's generous...she is looking more of your experiences and how you go about bringing out yourself....

she commented i shld have work towards sales and marketing side...cos i like to talk and good at it....on the result paper: don't touch hair, eye contact more...lol...ya i don dare eye contact....i didnt realise i touch my hair! LOOOOL...

went back home, slack awhile and off i went to TM to meet cindy...dinner at pastamania cos got tt crave ar...plus got new de....ok la..not bad only....updated me alot...from CNY till now de....woah...she always got so much to tell me...lol....got to learn of one disappointing issue...i can only -shake head- and -sighs-.....

sinyee joined us...first time don have tu so long cos her dad drove her there..haha...bond-ed and yup....girls talk...abt almost e'tin...as always..never ending....haha..walked home, borrow sy's toilet and gain an ang-bao from her mum + her dad's fetch home! hahaha....her dad always fetches us home...lol...eh we not on purpose go borrow her toilet de leh...haha...(=

shit, now my dad's turn....now he's the one calling me go home early n stuff...not my mom! he got affected by some advices i think...or his turn for menopause-ing?! ....... how ar...i msn felicia just now......now my house security SUPER ULTRA tight! like as if i go out or reach home late, got alarm will ring loudly till whole block can listen like that!! yea tt seriousssss! urgh!! nth i can do.....

1) try obey,
2) try restrict my itchy leg from gg out too often (which is real high difficulty),
3) try control leg to reach home early (i'm really trying!).... hais...

Ps: i saw a bag in esprit and it only cost $29.90!!! big or small size also $29.90!!! i'm so tempted...wait for my pay ba....hands getting itchy liao....so many months no new bags and shoes liao!!!

Le Collection

2008-02-14T13:50:00.003+08:00

urgh..i ALMOST strike lottery 3rd prize ytd!!! missed by a digit! shit! haha...

ytd first day work at raffles city push cart....Le Collection...Sarah (lady boss) is friendly, chatty and is english speaking, kind of tai-tai but her husband don really looks like rich man kind...lol..ok tt's not the main point...haha...

Anyway i like her because she sees all passerby or whoever stops at the cart as potential customers, regardless of how they dress or speak...she treated them all politely...You might never know they might purchase smthg from you whether its a small or big amt....So she taught me alot la..explaining and explaining the whole evening...Overall the most of the stones aren't strangers to me la...she has some unique or rare stones that Husk don't have la so it's new to me...the pendants, earrings etc. comes in only a few pieces and the designs are different and unique la...so actually it shld be easier to manage as in no need keep looking out if there's new piece or left how much stock and blah la...haha...This also explains for the high price of the products la, of course quality also la...lol...Service is equally important as she emphasize on..lol..

Okay, when closing the cart, she decided to increase my pay to $6/hr..lol..tt's great...but i'm still thinking of finding an office 5-day job...haha...cos work more and thus more $$$ la...lik so despo for $$$ ar...haha...she wants me to work full-time from mid-march on....i've yet to agree cos office job is on my mind...still deciding...if i work full-time at LeCollection...$$$ of course increase la...how ar? HAHAHA...

Felicia suggested meeting out with he Jies, she'll drive us out...but last min, her Jie back out so left the two of us....called peizhen (indecisive), mindy (also drives, at siglap ith frens)....sooo...all cannot...felicia gg crazy...ultra sad...and she just blast her EMO music and sings in the car....-.-" luckily her dad's car is sound proof.....if not there's a high chance of stones dropping down from the residents upstairs! my ears..wa...so called ah pek and ah bin...it was so sudden that i also donno how to ask them out...haha...yea so we went to fetch them and went east coast to slack n update....lol...

Midnight house visit

2008-02-13T15:23:00.003+08:00

haha..this mrgn ard 1.15am....these 3 crazy girls..peizhen, mindy and felicia came up to my hse!!! no is not my CNY open house day! haha..cos mindy is driving us out but i can't join them....my parents wun allow! haha...and they stand outside while i'm inside, divided my my gate...and we chit-chatted for around 15mins! LOL...haha....felicia's voice is so loud...haha...she called my hp and was standing outside asking which level is my house and unit....and i could hear her voice from outside la...and i didnt know to listen to her from my hp or from th voice that is travelling into my house from the outside! haha...

when they're at my level, they got a shock and thgt they're at chinatown! wahaha...

see that? haha...yeah my neighbours are so united that they shared money to buy CNY decorations and decorate the whole corridor! all the way from the lift to the end can! haha....i also kana shock la that mrgn when i open my gate and saw these stretch of things! haha..majiam in chinatown!! haha...

Past Weeks Updates II

2008-02-13T14:23:00.003+08:00

Ok so where I have been to for the past weeks? It's almost a month since I've last blog huh? Haha..Well something happen and pause my blogging...In addition there aren't much to update either...other than rushing projects daily and nightly!! Finally, lots of projects presentation and report 'dead'lines ended the week before CNY....timing is so right isn't it? Haha....Annnd so I'm damn free and relax after this Friday's Ccom interview....to be exact I've been so relax and have been going out everyday since last last tues! WAHAHA…lalala..aiya don be envious of us, year 3 la..everyone’s turn will be here sooooooooooon...don worry it's very soooon..just a blink of your own eyes...it's just only a few seconds, so fast that i haven been enjoying my year3 life, so fast can...till we all have no time to prepare for CNY and don even feel the atmosphere at all..fast till I didn't realize I'll be becoming an adult soon!! Urgh..haha..

26th January, Saturday-
Anyway few weeks back, it had been an emo one for me...i've finish reading “Ps, I Love You” that book....ok it was really quite nice..maybe cos I could relate to the story easily..it's so seldom I get so engrossed in a story book can! Haha....ok...

A big conclusion I got...

No matter what happens in life, however bad you percieved it as, earth don't stop rotating for you, time continue to pass, days continue to count, Life just continues~ It's all part of life, that's Life~ ha-ha

Humans have got a lot to learn in life.....Hence, I thought I have seen a lot of things through and I'm quite happy and really I feel so comfortable and glad that I've seen things through...so that's about it....

27th January, Sunday-
Accompanied mindy to Sheraton hotel for SIA interview...mindy's dream came true, she managed to get into the finals and now preparing to be an air stewardess....haha...ok while waiting for her outside the interview room....suddenly get emo, maybe because my mind is too quiet and free from a lot of thoughts and feelings....i guess it's also because I'm still quite affected by the book and another issue..So at that moment, I feel so appreciate all that I had or even those that I ONCE had.....i have got that urge to just Thanks all my friends....tho they might not known when's my down period, weirdly, they'll still be there for me at the right time no matter what...I need not find them but they will be and are there waiting for me...haha...weird isn't it? I really feel so fortunate to have them around me..no consoling words are needed, it's just their accompanies and their presences....it's enough....it's enough to make me feel any better...haha..and Felicia just happened to be sms-ing me...so I just thanked her....really Felicia..thank you....

Lol...she's so surprise to know that I do have my emo times! haha..because it's always she and her 'cancers' partners emo-ing nightly! Hahaha..however in the end I still didn't manage to send thanks to all...so THANKS all for being with me all these while...

Ha..i think actually quite a lot have happen huh....Another realization, if you've decided to consider someone to be your friend, you'll try to accept whoever he or she is...we just wun abandon him or her no matter what...everyone do have emotions and tempers..it only matters you can tahan till what kind of extend…haha....I think some knows what I'm talking about..anyway it just if you have decided to regard one as your friend, you'll be with them no matter what happens..aiya..i think my point is:
There is always a choice in everything, there is no one who can force you in anything!! There's a choice in everything la...

28th January,Monday-
Rushed to school early in the mrgn to meet the 8.30am 'dead'line for the SupplyChainManagement report with Felicia..luckily her dad lobang us there..and I forget to take my proposal with me! arrgh! Cos it got to attach with the report -.-...meet peizhen and mindy, we had breakfast at bedok 600+ wet market..had my fav missed kway chap! Haha...yummy! Mindy's treat, all happy eating and chit-chatting....while I'm in my own world, observing the people, the environment around me....everyone looks so familiar to me...the whole environment is so familiar and this really makes me feel so comfortable and at ease...I feel like I'm at home and I just fell into my own comfortable zone can...

Hmmm..where is ah por huh? Must be somewhere around marketing..maybe later I'll go walk around to look for her.....ha-ha-ha...some 'devil' just came in and break my thoughts! She's in hospital!! She's not here!! It's no longer the same now!! she couldn't walk or talk anymore!! It's a year already! It's been a year since we last heard her voice! at that moment, I'm really upset and devastated..i can only sighs non-stop..i can only feel it's wasteful...it's so ke xi..out of no where, I just pop out the question asking....sometimes in life, you'll feel ke xi..but other than feeling ke xi, what can you do? You know..ke xi...hais...haha..of course they don get what I mean! From my own comfortable zone returning to the scary cruel reality world!!

I tried...I tried to speaking out, wanting to let them know how sad I am...but I just couldn't do it because I'll break down whenever I try to speak further..i don't want...I don't want to spoil everyone's mood and scare them with my sudden emotions..that whole place...everywhere, every corner...full of memories, everything happens there...i was really in my own world....really trying very hard to hide the sadness....putting up a front face the whole day...was it fun? Was it okay? No it's not okay at all...all I do is to hide in blanket and cry w/o letting anyone to find out..it's so foolish and silly of me for crying over this issue for so many thousands times..

So I tried....i cried and cried and cried....i wanted so much to tell my parents about my childish thinking about this issue and hopefully they could enlighten me...But I still didn't do it.....i went to bed and cry....ha-ha-ha...=\ and also donno why my sister that day so just nice, goes to bed early too...I couldn't take it and just tried telling her what happen in the day and all my thoughts...haha..and I made her cry with me too! Lol...you see, if I were to tell everyone about it, I will only make them cry and worry with me...so why should I make them be like that with me? So I always choose to cry it out myself silently...hide it all inside....ha...

Ha~ In the end, I didn't really think things through...the conclusion I got is all what I know, I understand it but I couldn't learn and accept it!

Somewhere in my heart, there is still the hate, the revenge, the hurt, the deep cut, the thousands of regrets, guilty and ke xi!!!!!!!!!!

What can I do? Life~ha~

Past Week Updates I

2008-02-05T21:16:00.003+08:00

4th February, Monday - Chinatown

visited chinatown with the girls....we bought taiwan mochi....shopped the streets for many rounds..felicia went off early....angel bought a red cheong sum top....and we're so tired and didnt know where to go...cos we have shopped the streets for alot of times already..so i suggested going to 'Zhen Zhu Fang' market...cos i want to look for those stretchable belt...haha..and we happen to find this shop, Swanston...selling all toiletries...haha..ok i was the only one excited abt it..and took some pads...mindy and peizhen still at there laughing lor...haha..nvm...i went to look for some toner and when i went back to look for both of them....wa...a basket of pads lor!! HAHAHAHA....still laugh at me! lol..angel also bought quite lot sia...mindy spent the most can! hahaha...

and we continue to shop around, managed to find the shop and other DIY shops...wa alot of things to see...new shopping place! haha..anyway that shop is at level3...can go look around if you all have the time..(=

8th Feb-11th Feb - Thailand, Karbi
went karbi with parents...a place with lots of nice beaches...but too bad i didnt go there...i stayed inside a thai temple with parents...it's fun and good...very relaxing...this place contains quite a part of my childhood memories..lol...had not been back there for ard 8years...alot changed but it's still a nice place..(=

second day was spent at phuket....prayed...actually whole trip is about praying la...lol...it's moe of a get together for my dad and his friends there...lol...he met alot of nuns and monks there..lol...alot of faces are also familiar to me...haha...they don grow old one leh! haha...all the monks look at least 10yrs younger than their age can! the remedy to it should be eat healthily and stay in countryside ba?! wahaha...

third mrgn, we went climbing the hills....it takes us to climb 1,237 steps to get to the top to see the big buddha and the beautiful scenary of Karbi....the feeling up there is reallly...wow...i don't feel like staying there and don't want to go back down to the ground....it's windy and air is fresh up there...of course the journey up is not easy but luckily there's my mum to accompany me....along the way, i still shit in the toilet..LOL...it came at the wrong time la! hahaha...stupid monkeys...haha..thgt my mum's pocket tissue is banana cos they saw yellow colour! gave my mum a scare! haha...

afternoon, we went to climbed a smaller hill and walk into the forest then to the cave...lol...fun...visited one of the thai monk....had dad's and my fortune read...haha..(=
anw alot of ang mohs went there...wow..haha...shuai...hahaha...quite a number of ppl stay in the temple also....got this american stay there for 1 whole month already and he has been climbing the 1,237 steps up and down every mrgn! haha..all so free lor...no need to work...just stay there and relax...what else...hmmm..oh the food! haha..had two nights of my dinner at Karbi Town...the BBQ fish..wow...shiok! hahaha....

overall...this trip is relaxing la...((=

TP Open House 2008

2008-01-15T22:50:00.000+08:00

Bze booth

BWP helped out at the bze booth for TPOH....it was quite fun where we got to promote out own course and designing of our own tees....our booth are situated in the middle of Fdm and Ibt booth...and we were so frustrated with FDM lecturers who kept blocking the 'entrance' of our booth! they donno why keep gather and chat in front of our booth which thus blocking passerby's chance of looking or noticing our booth or course! they even stand in front and distribute their course flyers la! arrgh....omg lor....was so angry and we even heard the stupid uncivilised lecturers bad mouthing our course! WTH!!! and we got jordan to act as student to go over FDM that idiotic old lecturer to ask abt their course and ask for comparison abt Fdm and Bze...haha...he still has some kuo de and did not mark our course down!

our course lecturers so trusted us for being really indepenent so much that nobody came to help promote...haha..anw we see no need of it also la...cos sure got ppl choose our course one...the actions of the lecturers shows their desperate in the need for students in their course....but they are doing a little too over and so openly ar....esp tt old idiot!

ha~ and one yayapapaya secondary student! we were explaining our course to them and oneof the guy said, "i don't see any link with business and engineering!" wa....so arrogant la! u better don't get into this course BOY!!! really la...so arrogant! hais kids these days~ *shake head* lol...

cam-whored...i was damn crappy....rubbish-ed so much with the students and nobody wants to help me be model for some photo-taking thingy....haha...anw objectives were met la...good impression of bze was created and introduction of bze was explained! (= it's actually all abt quality management, implementation of improvments in companies, more of businesses than engineering blah blah blah....and we also managed to sell some of the year 3's soap....

felicia and i keep running over to angel's eps booth, chatted with jasmine and qianyu..haha...hd so much fun joking with them....i think they miss shanghai's life alot! haha...Bze student are quite great leh..so many of them got commendations and merit! *envy* haha...

after e'tin, slacked at TM awhile with kb, sandy and vivi before heading home....

Choose BZE! ROFL...(=

East Coast Camping

2008-01-14T22:34:00.000+08:00

East Coast Camping

due to evening heavy rain, we delayed our meeting time till ard 8pm...both felicia and me were the earliest can!! only for these kind of things....LOL...we only got one tent cos mindy say say alr den always in the end change words...her tent with friends...e'one contributes food....so as soon as e'one reached we had dinner together....beehoon+vegetablecurry+almondjelly...haha..wa felicia's curry is....spicy! anw i only saturday then realise 7-11 has ice-dispenser...lol...

spend the night playing jordan's improvised indian poker...i shldn't be forefited, i didnt lose but i was sabotaged! i was kana appointed to drink the mixed vodka because they got the biggest card! so i drank alot of times...i was damn high with felicia...haha...smthg funny happens and only the 2 of us got the joke...so we're laughing non-stop....mindy's crazy, wants to drink so much...let her drink lor...then ltr at night is she ownself uncomfortable...giddy....and poor peizhen got to hold her to toilet and stay in the tent to take care of her....after the game i was really full with mixture of vodka and drinks and crackers at the brink of my throat! LOL...cos i ate a piece of cracker each time i drink...haha..cos some mixtures are eerrrwww....

so in the end, i couldn't control and vomit at the mac! LOL..it's disgusting with beehoon and mushroom that is not in bits but in one full piece! LMAO....however i'm awake, not drunk, able to walk in straight line and in a clear mind...better than MindyTan, JordanTay (who talks in his dreams!) and HuangYaoQing (who sleeps like a dead pig la) cos of jordan la, make him drink with him! haha...peizhen was so angry at yaoqing...HAHAHA....

vomitting starts....jordan vomitted a bag of orange liquid substance! cos all the things he ate are orange...like curry, orange juice.....omg..gross....cos he vomitted in front of us and even held the bag so high!! yaoqing slept and woke up halfway and vomited on the road, where the crow had his vomit as breakfast the nxt mrgn..the crows helped cleaned the pavement! haha...

anyway i really enjoy seeing stars at east coast.....it was really a starry starry night...whole sky was filled with stars! really beautiful and the atmosphere so romantic can with us lying on the mat by the beach enjoying the beautiful scene....ltr i joined Mindy and Yaoqing at the tent and jordan joined in ltr....inside the tent....wa i really got no good position....

First, i slep at the corner and out of no where i smell coke and realise it was too late cos my hair kana alr! -.- yaoqing la! donno put coke inside his bottle for what and even put it inside the tent and was toppled over and coke leak out! arrgh...

Second, i sleep in another position where my head is directly behind, facing yaoqing's butt! it's only one palm distance away from my face to his butt....dots....i prevent myself from breathing too hard and luckily he didnt fart in his sleep!

Third, i squeeze in beside jordan and yaoqing cos mindy is taking too much space at the side...annnnd....i was facing Jordan's armpit whe i faced right! ....... i commented to angel, "yaoqing's butt i also don mind already, what for mind Jordan's armpit!" HAHA...

i realise i cannot lie down cos whenever i lie down, i wanna vomit..so i decided to try vomit and see...lol..this time i go inside toilet la cos all cubicles are free! haha..and while vomitting those acid or watever vodka contains la....so yucks and i thgt i shldn't do this kind of things to make myself so uncomfortable wat...haha..so i'm not gonna to drink so much nxt time....or try not to drink? HAHA!

back at the tent, 5am, both felicia and me brought the mat to the beach again to wait for the sunrise...chatted...got emo awhile and i start to realise sky is turning brighter...haha...i'm so excited! but felicia couldn't see the change only after there's quite a big difference! haha..omg...it's so fun to witness Singapore's sky turning and changing brighter....and slowly we see the orange stretch of sky at the other far end of the sea....

we then moved over to the 'stone' which has a even more good view....hahaha...we started craping and was very high again.....slowly i see the sun coming out when the sky has alr turned bright for donno how long!!! the sun is late la! and both of us started singing "Tai Yang Yang Gong Gong qi chuang liao...." hahaha..it was wow...gorgeous....giantic bright orange salted egg!!! hahaha...

Overall the camping was a success but not really meeting the objectives of bonding cos e'one got drunk and tired! .... but still it's another wonderful memory and experience! ((=

*Ps: felicia's another criteria is to accompany her watch stars and witness sunrise with her! LOL....anyone interested pls tag!!! =D

Next outing: Chinatown?

Bsi: Ahhhhhhhhh

2008-01-10T21:55:00.000+08:00

School was stress....tiring (might be due to lack of sleep).....stress? more and more news and reminders of the month end datelinessss and coming quizzes....and the always changing, confusing Bsi project....today aft bsi lab is like.....ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... tonight gonna continue with CRM programming thingy and next mrgn, hopefully, before gg to school to help at Bze booth, to catch some sleep....now donno why starting to feel guilty or bad for always staying overnight outside...tho it was due to good reason...projects...24 hrs aren't enough even tho we're sacrificing our sleep!! urgh....anw tml i'm gonna visit her in bvh.....

i just love listening to kangkang's singing...it's touching and sad enough to make me wants to cry.... or maybe his songs just reflects on smthg? ha~ ok tt's so random... (=

~~i so feel like crying but i'm just stopping myself from being thinking too much...maybe tt's avoidance?~~

Changi Airport T3 Official Opening!

2008-01-09T15:43:00.000+08:00

Libra (Sep 23 - Oct 22)
The Bottom Line
Someone you love will mess up your daily routine, but they don't mean any harm.

In Detail
Someone who is lovable (but also a bit frustrating) could make things a bit rocky for you, messing up all your plans for the day. Their inflexibility is going to wreak havoc with your schedule and totally upset your daily routine. The good news is that it won't take long for you to come up with a backup plan that will help you work around the obstacles they have inadvertently created. Celebrate the fact that you can always find a way to get yourself back on track.

(someone you love ----- my mummy?!) haha...

Excursion at Changi Airport Terminal 3
We did not manage to solve all codes and thus not all pages are link up...haha...soooooo...at ard 4.45am, Felicia and i stopped our Monopoly game (on computer) and we all packed our stuffs and head for the skytrain!!!

yea..Mindy, PeiZhen, Felicia, Angel and Me are the first few girls to be at T3 on it's official opening day!!! wahaha...we took the earliest skytrain which start operating at 5am! "Please hold on to the handrail..." these kind of reminder is not just for show k...when they announce it, please do hold on to the handrail..if not you will end up like MindyTan and FeliciaSim!!! wahaha...they both lost balance and fell onto the seats with Mindy stacking above Felicia! HAHAHA...after, asap we reached T3, we sent angel into the transit and the scene was like majiam sending her off to some country and we all will be separated for years or forever! lol...
it's Terminal 3! 3~
so the 4 of us went exploring Changi Airport T3! haha...anw we don't sound energetic as it seems, we are actually v tired...yet excited! haha...we were damn bo liao...we saw angel at at the departure gate, both Mindy and I waved damn vigorously and excitedly to her! HAHAHAHA....so sua ku and is really throw face la without noticing there's policeman on duty inside the secruity counters! haha..this is not sua enough lor, there's more at the back! haha...

PeiZhen, Felicia and Me travelled up and down the escalator twice! haha..cos it is moving real slow when nobody is on it, so we tried standing on it in the moving up direction...and it speeds up! and we travelled back down (which is also moving slow and speeds up when we're on it) cos Mindy is downstairs with the luggage trolley with all our barang barangs....HAHAHAHA...baka!
inside the lift, up and down thrice...
next, we took the lift up and down thrice to just take a satisfied picture inside! ..... hahahahaha.... next, i suggested to visit the toilet because we've yet to visit T3's toilet!! hahaha..Female toilet same lor, apart from being clean, it looks really new and shiny! haha....annnnnnd....i suggested the Male toilet! haha...so felicia went in then i joined in with peizhen taking photo for us while Mindy with our Barang trolley looking out for us....hahaha...it was all idiotic behaviour....we were all so afraid police might arrest us for our nuisance....thinking there might be police waiting for us at the exit! LOL...

FemaleToilet...

MaleToilet...ugly pose!

it's 5.30am! we've explored for an hour...

this travelator is very very long!!!

and then we took lift to the arrival hall then to the basement.....Mindy is so excited and there she goes again about her future pulling luggage in the airport with thick make up, red red lipstick in the kebaya attire! haha...when we reach basement, the energy is left with only 20%....so we walked and pushed the BarangTrolley till the bus terminal and leave it behind a pillar...haha..and guess what..there is really a policeman there at the exit! hahaha... inside T3 Transit...

20% energy

while waiting for bus....haha...we all keep chanting 27, 27, 27....whenever we see bus approaching from the entrance at the far end....haha...and finally it's here! haha...saw so many sec sch kids! haha...we are heading home while they are gg school! hahahahaha....

*oh anyway..people please help my friend, SPY, look out for her future bf or husband...criteria set:

1) any policeman tt works in ariport and are dark in skincolour OR

2)any guy tt will sacrifice sleep and accompany SPY, go patrolling in airport in army uniform with a rifle....

she has a special liking for the above mentioned! ROFL....

BWP: for the sake of our President's future!

Rangers: for the sake of our fellow Ranger's future!

CRM Projecting -Changi Airport T2

2008-01-09T03:27:00.000+08:00

Current Location: Changi Airport T2 MacDonalds

Everyone is dead...hahaha...crazy from solving the codes for CRM datasheet...arrggghhh...i hate IT!!! argh...we ate non-stop as soon as we reach here....i bought sour gummies! haha...bought Polar Cakes: DurianRoll, StrawberryRoll, CoconutDelight, PeachWalnut.....Mindy bought CaramelMachiato from Starbucks, TwisterFries from Mac, ChocolateSundae.....haha...and we are so happy tho we only manage to solve one code! haha...and both Mindy and Felicia go so yayapapya over their achievement....keep lying to each other that they can be IT student blah blah... ha- i doubt we can finish....

Anyway we're only looking forward to sending Angel to work at T3...haha...cos we all are so excited about visiting T3 on it's official opening day! haha...felicia and mindy (do the code thingy till siao) that they keep thinking they'll have the chance to get into the camera or tv....cos there will be tv crew in T3 to film the opening! LOL..

12 midnight Curfew

2008-01-06T23:11:00.000+08:00

haha..peeps tell u all smthg...i've got a curfew! got to reach home by 12 midnight! ..... hais...anyway i got to behave myself for the sake of this weekend's camping session and for my 'future' schedules!!!

how this thing arise? and how come only now then she nag and have this curfew?

firstly, it might be because of my often late night out during the holidays....and my house area don seems safe with the super quiet-ness during the night and i can blame nobody for staying so inside the block and most of the time i have to walk in alone....but actually most of the time, i shld feel safe because usually my girls will send me til my bus stop otherwise, i'll have cab or vehicle sending me till right downstairs my block! but she's unaware abt all these....

secondly, omg this is the main cause i think...it adds up to her worry and 90% to the reason of my curfew! my xiaoyi's sister-in-law got robbed by 2 malays in the afternoon ard 3plus at her hse block....and her eyes were kana beaten, blue-black, blood and bone fractured! serious....and so in bright daylight, such a incident could also occur.....so she couldn't imagine if it's at night...esp midnight...HAIS....

ya...so tt's abt it....Rangers got no fortune..4D didnt strike! this weekend we still have to stick to camping in the tent at EastCoastPark le....)= HAHA...(=

YeoJiJiBuai

2008-01-03T23:30:00.000+08:00

overslept this mrgn and was late for supplychain casestudy meeting...the whole class miss the 3hrs CRM lab thinking there's no more lab but own project discussion...and only ard 5 ppl of electronic students attended the lab....LOL....and all started attending the supplychain lect and BSI tutorial...hahaha...

BSI project meeting follow after the tutorial....haha...it was fun, craps, arguing (WE WANT CARD! WO YAO KA!!), joking, teasing, 4D number and date for EastCoastCamping was set! lalala...and rangers share money to buy 4D!!! LOL...cos of some digit we keep using it as the queue no. example...and felicia dreamt of lizards (means fortune) alot of times these days....hahaha...(yeojijibuai! yeojibuaibuai!)

ok enough of BSI and a short CRM project discussion before we without angel went for jogging at BedokReservior....i realise jogging (or exercising) really do help in releasing abit of stress and what you've kept inside and just let it out! i almost release it out....

after jogging, jordan then go for takaewondo while we girls went opposite 800+ for dinner....saw vick's car, he waved to me and before i could react...vroooom...he's gone! LOL....
felicia and me did some very senseless and childish act! i laugh till i almost couldn't catch my breath! i'm laughing at how come i will be childish together with felicia and our stupidity!!!ROFL...tml both of us will be swimming and i donno what stupid acts we are gg to do again....HAHA....

12 January 2008 - Rangers 2008 First Outing: EastCoastPark Camping!!!

(i commented on every rangers' friendster except PeiZhen & YaoQing cos they don have the account there!!!)

What's after TP???

2008-01-03T22:19:00.000+08:00

Confidence is essential in everything you do! and ha~ i just lack alot of it....i didnt dare to try....i'm just worried about this and that....i can't see my future...ok i mean i see nothing in my future....i live by days...taking plans n schedule by days instead of long term plans!! oh...i do make longer plans like planning my holiday schedule way before it really comes.....all the funs were planned far ahead! LOL..it's serious...i should already get started thinking.....it's consider already late late late to only start thinking when i'm graduting in a months time!! ahhh...it's really becoming serious....

Should i work for 2 years then back to school again?! however i'm afraid i wun be able to do that after a 2 year break from studying and i know i'll then be working for the rest of my life already! i'm unable to do it due to the fact that i sure lack of motivation, determination and perseverance....But thinking in another point of possible view, my motivation might be available due to the competitive working evironment for the need to upgrade oneself and i start to return to study?! wahaha...u got what i mean?

Uh huh...and....ya...right? agree? OR.....

Should i further study then to work later.....Two problems here....
1) i'm still considering the tourism or hospitality sector....there aren't any uni providing this kind of course right?! only private or overseas study...which is like....NOT cheap!
2) so what if i have set my mind on studying private or overseas irregard of the expensive fees....i have studied this course and know abit more abt this sector...AND i then discover that's not what i actually wanted! ahhhhhhh...HAHAHAHA!!! ha-ha-ha...so?

any RICH GUY wants to MARRY me????? sooooooooo i can live the TAI-TAI kind of life: can rot at home, play mahjong all day, shake leg, shopping like money is indefinite!!!
AH HAHA!!!

people any advices? any idea? *SIGH*

I should have gone for the countdown...

2008-01-02T21:41:00.000+08:00

NewYearEve - afternoon shopping with Felicia cos i gain rice wanted to use the voucher cindy gave me....got to use it by this day and i only got it on saturday...haha...ya so call her out to try use it...in the end i bought necklace from diva after browsing in the shop for an hour! lol...we both got tired and sian so we went home instead of joining sandy n cliques at CHIJMES.....haha..ya i spend my countdown at home again! watching tv....i shld have gone for countdown right?! cos i wish 2008 to be a wonderful one..jieyi called to wish HappyNewYear an her noisy background did made me feel regret to stay at home instead of joining the fun outside! shit..but countdown is over...haha..

NewYearDay - spend afternoon doing CRM project with the girls at ChangiAirportT2 and dinner with parentss...while walking pass the departure hall, october 19 scene flash in my mind! haha..i sure look ugly in that cry baby face!! haha..majiam those scene that i expect it shld only been seen in those idol drama....back at home, rush resume and cover letter draft....

Today - went school for CCOM make up lesson....lunched at biz school before starting with BSI project....went library to look for CRM reference book and slacked there....till almost all got into EMO state with felicia's: As we go on....... HAHAHA...i shut my ears...meet jordan after his gym and dine at simpang...crap from roots of our names, future kids' names, classmates and female's point of view about girls differ from male's point of view....ya la...boring...

year 2007..

2007-12-31T21:20:00.000+08:00

In fact, i'm really lazy and dread to go through, looking back at the past 12 months on 2007....
*if u dislike my always discussion about that same issue...i advise u not to read it...*

it was never a good year for me! and i really dislike, hated this WONDERFUL year....aren't 7 suppose to be a lucky number? ha~ maybe it's does not apply to me....maybe there aren't many bad things falling on me but that just one ACCIDENT is enough...it covers the badness of the whole of my 2007....hais...it has been a year already leh...how long will it last....to every outsiders, hope seems around....to me, hope has been going on and off....in fact, i once doubt existence of god for months....but i still pray to them because i could do nothing else...they seems to be our only hope...i know u feel like punching me...but those months i really feel this way...

i really see the other dark negative side of me....i thought i was really immature and was never as capable as i previously thought! i realise alot...i realise i really knows how to talk but action is less...said is really easier than done! i realise i shouldn't anyhow tell anyone or give ppl advice unless i really understand their situation and feelings of that situation or incident....i realise i took alot of things especially the happiness and comfortness i got from family forgranted!! i start to learn how to treasure and know what is precious and valueless...whole year i'm like living in childhood times...i huai nian alot and suddenly remember so much about my childhood, my growing up....all those memories was wonderful and huiqin naively wish for a time-machine....haha..

went to Shanghai and lived for almost 5 months...was really an experience and will be a memory that i'll always look back at....i realise i was bad at problem-solving and feel really dumb....i treasure my family even more....i know their importance...i treasure friends alot too and was really easily affected by them.....in shanghai, i then know how much i need and miss them....feel really bad that i'm not with them when they are facing problems....in this OSIP, got to know alot of friends! lol..JASMINE, QIANYU....lol..i can't imagine we all stayed together for that long when we are really strangers before we went! haha...knows each other habits!! haha..ok keep all secrets ar! lol....shopping was really great!

when i'm back, it was all rushing for MP datelines....numerous day burning night oil....i can almost be spokeperson for NewMoonChickenEssence for drinking it almost each mrgn...ha~ thinking back it's quite fun....got really stress for MP....could only gather with friends until december....holidays were almost every night outside home...watched movie, spend $$ with no extra allowance! i discover it's difficult to manage finance after coming back from shanghai! too many late nights caused father to be unhappy...lol...mum got very worried and i saw her still looking after me as if i'm still in prmary school.....worried i'll turn bad or whatsoever....if i'll, would i wait till this age where i'm already entering the '2' world! .... ya parents~

what is the greatest thing about 2007?? maybe OSIP? i'm not sure...maybe knowing more friends or getting closer to some friends is the greatest or happiest issue of 2007? LOL....i mean it...friendship do get better and closer....

this 2007 made me discover more about myself....maybe it's a good thing? ha~ i donno...life of my friends around me are too, not enjoying this year....but of course minority did enjoy.....so i really hope 2008 will be a much more better year for us....i'm going for 2009's new year countdown and christmas countdown!! haha..i don wanna be like year 2007! nth exciting nor enjoyable about!!! ((=

i don have new year resolutions....or i don't bother to?! haha..

year 2008 = i'll TREASURE each day, everything that i had and will try not to take things forgranted.....all bad be gone with year 2007! (=

I am LEGEND!!

2007-12-30T09:23:00.000+08:00

how ar...i donno if dad is angry or he's too tired from daily work.....he seems to talk alot lesser! )= i donno izzit because of me! =X

Thursday
mrgn met peizhen and felicia to do supply chain and search for useful library books....then went to Bugis and Suntec because i got to settle sinyee's gift....evening we went angel's hse to continue the suppl chain...and ended at ard 10 plus...so it results in gg home late again...

Friday
i stay at home! slacked, watch dvd etc....time passed fast because i woke up late in the afternoon...LOL...

Saturday
i think due to pms...temper not that good...mood swing....got very irritated by bro...often i can't be bothered by him...but seriously i think he is asking nonsensical question!

he asked me (flipping the few disc on his hands while i'm busy packing my desk!), "eh the F.R.I.E.N.D.S disc which one is first episode?!"
Me (got very irritated), "ni ke yi bu yao fan wo ma (can you don irritate me)?!"

it's not the first time i that rudely reply him these few days...cos he is really irritating to ask me the obvious! disc sure got write which one first episode de right!! arrgh! he is too FREE, i'm too BUSY and can't be bothered to entertain him!! @#$% how old is he alr lor...damn childish...on bus.....hais...don wanna talk abt it....

so whole afternoon, i'm packing my roooom...ya FINALLY i started! i throw all the sec sch text, exercise book, notes etc.....cos it's taking up too much cupboard and i needed the cupboard for the poly notes....while clearing, in my mind was scoldings and grumblings....

last time buy so much books for wat? study so much for wat? now all also got to throw....waste all the money....study so much for what? buy so many books for what? blah blah blah.....

i'm so fed up and keep repeating the grumblings inside me...LOL...is really pms working....then my mother at the same time niam-ing....so feel like calling her to sh*t-up and let me clear my room myself...cos she's telling me, you shld do this, do that.....hais.........it's so warm and i'm sweating, she still choose that time to dismantle the fan to wash it...-.- i know pms is working on me....so i could only tell myself that once after washing, the wind will be stronger!! but it's still the same lor after washing...AO TAH FAN!!! hahahahaha....

meet up with Sinyee at ard 7.30pm but she's late~....travel to CityHall and dine at HongKongCafe....Cindy joined us after her work and we bought 10.35pm movie tix....I am Legend....omg...NICE!! exciting!! haha...it happen that it's always we 3 ladies watching this kind of show....28WeeksLater also! LOL....cindy was alright this time...Sinyee still the same....my jacket which was actually and supposingly to be at my lap BUT it slowly unknowingly become Sinyee's eyecover!! .... LOL....after that we exchanged our gifts on the cab...LOL...i got another small pouch/bag!! haha...i'm loving it! THANKS CINDY!!! (=

i'm so fed up with ccw....he that idiot! we girls decide to heck care him and wait for him to contact us himself...as for his present....claim it urself when u contact us...i'll see what excuses you have for us this time round!! such an idiot! next time u call, i'll not answer! u sms, i don't reply!! arrrrgghhh....lan ren!!!!!

2007 Merry Christmas cum Boxing Day!!

2007-12-28T19:32:00.000+08:00

HOHOHO…MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Haha..ok it's belated....LOL..My day was spent warmly with my family..i went visiting grandma at hospital with all the others....My aunties are quite surprised that I'm home last night...haha..they expected me to stay out late counting down....but I didn't! haha...cos I wanted a low profile Christmas countdown...LOL....ok we all had dinner together at some foodcourt at bedok700+....shoppped at ShengSiong and some shops before going home...it was a nice low profile Christmas this year...hais..still I feel warmth and happiness...((=

Boxing Day- Rangers had their X'mas Gift Exchange on BoxingDay!! Haha..both Felicia and I went to PeiZhen's hse early mrgn like ard 11+ to go Giant to get ingredients for the making of Sushi....cos we're helping her to make sushi for her dear (yaoqing)...back at her home, we did our supply chain case study and spent the rest of the afternoon making the sushi..we were all so nuan after it and feel like sleeping....esp me...i don feel like going out anymore...haha...

Ok of course I still went..met the others at KennyRoger...dine there..we then went up to Esplanade Rooftop to carry out our gift exchange...haha..so we had a game where everyone has to close their eyes and starting with one secret angel to place the present in front of his/her guardian...haha..it was fun..haha..Felicia, Peizhen, Mindy and me got surprise presents for everyone..haha....so we all one by one distributes all our presents to everyone before the opening of presents starts..haha...I had my goodie bags and gingerbread man for them..haha...

SecretAngels - Guardians:

PeiZhen - Angel - YaoQing - PeiZhen, Mindy - HuiQin - Felicia - Jordan - Mindy....

Felicia bought each of us something which really suits us..i got a DonaldDuck soft toy from her!!! Haha..it's really cute..and I love it...THANKS FELICIA!!! ((=

A small box of BaKwa from Mindy (my secret angel)..thought the impact wasn't very big but I still love it..because it's BaKwa...my FAV...in addition it's from BeeChengHiang! It's not cheap yet delicious! THANKS MINDY!!! ((=

Haha...and with the help of Felicia, Peizhen got a blingbling bracelet from PeiZhen and I really love it a lot!!! Haha..cos it really suits me...and I'm so touched to see that she had develop a photo of both me and her...with some writings behind it...PeiZhen my liver is really moving!!! Haha.....even my heart had moved and I almost cry out...LOL..THANKS PEI ZHEN!!! ((=

Everyone was overjoyed with the presents they had!! And cam-whoring starts non-stop when we open each present one by one...at that moment, I really feel the atmosphere of 2007 Christmas!! ((= I thought my Christmas this year will be just something low profile but I felt so high profile at that moment when with the Rangers!!! Haha..

angel went off first while the others walked to RafflesCity to eat B&J ice-cream! omg~YUM YUM!! haha...and i got job application forms from the salesperson and thgt of working in B&J in feb! haha...felicia damn ji siao la...cos there's a note: "Pls say i'm cute," pasted at the cashier and felicia told the person....You're cute! WAHAHAHA....both mindy and i were shocked and laughing like mad...haha....a sinful day..cos mrgn, had 2 bowls of mum's cooked noodles...afternoon, titbits and box of sushi at peizen's place...night, kennyroger + B&J ice-cream!! =X

Rangers make a difference to my Christmas this year...

i TREASURE you RANGERS!!!

THANK YOU RANGERS!!!((= *hugs*

2007 Christmas Eve

2007-12-28T19:06:00.000+08:00

Christmas Eve was spent with SinYee...ok before that what you think of when it comes to Christmas?! PRESENTS!!! and...MONEY!!! Haha..

okok I met up with sinyee at ard 12 noon after her advance driving test..so we took train and head to town...had lunch before the shopping starts..first stop was Takashimaya and nothing was bought...I'm trying to find presents for 2 more person including her (sinyee)! I'm broke! I'm not working and only spending parents' money..so I need to work asap! Any job lobang?! Haha...seriously I'm gg crazy to think what presents to get for these 3 friend...and I gave up playing that game with sinyee and ask her directly what she wants..haha..so throughout the shopping day, she also looking out for my for her present! Hahaha...

Next we pass by Wisma and visited Forever21 and Charles&Keith...omg...Charles&Keith is having sales! I see a lot of beautiful heels!!! eyes go ting ting ting lor (with my finger action)...haha...bu I could do nth but only keep on trying...haha...it's very TSK that the display are always sizes like 35 or 36! and I cannot try on these sizes...TSSSSSSSSK!! Haha...so tempting la...and this branch at Wisma is super big and nice to shop at..it has a lot of bags collection too! Wa...my world..hahaha....but sadly I've to restrict myself from buying anymore bags and shoes TEMPORARY...hahahah..cos I'm not working and if I were to get some more of these items, my mum will kill me..hee...

Following behind is FarEast...we walked there and started with the highest level..still searching for suitable items for chunwai, Felicia and of course poh (sinyee) la..haha...NOTHING! I get nth! Haha..sinyee has been looking for her $12.90 scarf but we seems to unable to find the shop! Haha...

Next we travelled to Suntec City because I've another backup present for Felicia if I really couldn't get anything for her...So we went to Husk to visit Cindy and I chose a MotherOfPearl bracelet for Felicia...ok YEAH one present settled! Hahaha..went to CottonOn and try out some tops...both of us aimed some of them so we'll be gg there again!! hahaha..Asap we walked to Bugis...hehe..

Our last stop at Bugis...shopped at BugisStreet, trying to find sinyee's desired bag but either it was out of budget or not suitable...haha..toooo bad..haha...and in the end we managed to get chunwai's present at some shop...YEAH another down! Hahaha..damn happy to have 2 stones down...lol..abit kua ar..but I really don enjoy cracking my head to think of presents for ppl...i rather you tell me directly what you want and I'll get it for you..haha..in anyway it's still the thought that counts right people!! Haha..

We traveled back to Tampines at ard 6.30pm..cos Desmond is meeting his dear (sinyee) for dinner..so I bought dinner back for my siblings while they two went for dinner...and it marks the end of my day! Though it was quite a rushing time throughout the day but I enjoy the rushing moments..haha...((=

Eve of Christmas Eve

2007-12-28T18:52:00.000+08:00

It's the eve of the Christmas Eve! HAHAHA...ok...what I did?! I baked GINGERBREAD MAN!!! Hehe...I spent the whole afternoon baking it....for who?! For my dear friends and family la! Haha...I have also packed GOODIE BAGS for them! Haha....cos I wanted to give everyone the childhood feeling...haha....goodie bags are a must for any festive or special occasions during childhood times.....haha....so I packed some childhood titbits, candy sticks, chocolates and MaMee!! Haha....so everyone of my family ppl.....I mean the kids la...all had goodie bag and gingerbread man! Haha....

Anyway in the baking process, I broke 2 gingerbread man's head! Haha…they are headless and naked! Haha....cos before I could dress them up, I've accidentally broken their fragile head! So I ate them....haha....so I started dressing those completed piece of gingerbread man with icing sugars to paste their buttons (M&M chocolates) and their eyes....it was so fun dressing them up...haha.....I laughed so happily upon seeing my first gingerbread man being dressed up! Hahahahaha....i feel so satisfied! ROFL.....they look really cuuuuuuuuuuuute!! Hahaha..

I distributed to my family ppl at the hospital when I went for visiting...feedbacks...M&M chocolates were nice....-.-“ haha..cos they don't like the taste of cinnamon and smell of ginger....lol...but my cute little cousin, Shawn was so damn giving me face by finishing the whole gingerbread man! Haha....I really LOVE him! Hahahaha....too bad another little cousin was not around so he did not get the goodie bag and my gingerbread man! Haha...We all then had dinner at WhiteSands and I saw a lot of botaks! LOL...cos all the army guys were booked out and almost every vehicle that comes out of the carpark contain at least one botak! ROFL...the scene is really funny....haha..i can start counting the number of botaks actually....haha....

Back home, slept sweetly....((=

haha..if u notice, all are distorted, fractured!

the 4 completed piece of GingerBread Man!! more at the back la...((=

PEK CHEK!!!

2007-12-24T23:01:00.000+08:00

PEK CHEK!

can anybody tell me what had happen during that 5mth period while i'm in sh?! friends! rangers! what exactly had happen?! what cause all these? or actually e'one had always been like this and i had know you all more? i'm really fed up...i donno what you all are thinking...

while i'm in sh, it's alr like hearing news you girls crying so much...getting upset so easily....emotions is really being affected.....i really do get worried....i can do nth since i'm in sh..now......back in singapore, i also cldn't do anything! cos e'one is closing their door...nobody wants to welcome anyone....ok if me...i also wun open my door that easily...but please don close too long till the key turns rusty and nobody can open! it's really pek chek......i can't leave you all alone unless i don regard you as friend....please if you regard us as your friend, don't make your friend worry abt you!!

i need a full understanding of what happen.....everybody is so emo...emo is in the trend huh?!
#$%&^

Ah Pa's angry?!

2007-12-24T01:43:00.000+08:00

everyday late night out creates tension...LOL..i mean my dad (ahpa) is getting unhappy!! =X

saturday evening was at grandma there and went to meet up with Mindy, Peizhen and Felicia....they all very gao tu lor...i only meet them at ard 9pm when i leave my grandma place like at ard 7pm! so my mum assume i'll be home early...but she didnt assume i have bunch of friends who loves to tu! so we took bus no.5 to junrong's hse..and met up with joel, huiwei and clement...weird combi ar? i think so too! LOL...haha..ok so we accompanied uncle choo to watch soccer awhile...ok or rather say only mw accompany awhile only...and i went into the room to chat with mindy..lol..cos i donno how to watch soccer...so don rather act know...haha...awhile later, peizhen n felicia joined in and e started playing 41 with poker! haha...fun game...

pizza arrived, eat and slack awhile in the room before gg downstairs....felicia is damn sua and ..... to know that Bejewel exist...and she doesn't knows how to play la!! hahaha...ok went down to slack, drink and played IndianPoker...Mindy is seriously crazy....i don wan say you le.....ltr...sit by the pool, lying down, watch stars..haha...talk cock....jr n joel jumped into pool to cool down..LOL...they make it a poin every weekend to meet up n drink! CRAZY!! i'm not joining u guys next week! and we leave at ard 1.30am.....cos my mum sms me' better come home now...dad gg to change padlock liao...' i donno if is true but i can sense nth is good...so asap return home..haha..

and i think my dad who seldom angry nor interfere....is now like unhappy with me! =X cos i have too many late night out le!!! i needa to control...ppl help me also k! don stay out too late leh! he is not talking to me this mrgn (sunday)...even if he had...is only short reply and like don feel like talking to me kind lor! shit....i think i really step on his tail alr....tonight he's back home early n fall into slp damn damn early...it's so unlike him! he's also same as me la..e'time outside run run till late late..if not watch tv till late late then sleep...but today his actions are all so abnormal so not the usual him!!! i thgt he's sick but he's not!

hope e'tin is fine and i'm being over sensitive! *PRAY*

Facial- PAIN

2007-12-21T23:55:00.000+08:00

my shoulder is very stiff!!!

mrgn woke up and went for facial at hougang...wow...haha...PAIN la!!! the condition very jialatt..seems like the doctor's medcation only work on the surface...i also donno..cos according to my that facial auntie, she say underneath alot....omg...it's really toxic...my face turning real ANCE skin!!! is reallly PAIN PAIN PAIN!!! OUCH la...so feel like boxing her when she is pressing those dirt out....haha...feel like scolding vulgars...hokkien vulgars la...really very pain....girls~ Wants to be Pretty but don't want Life...haha...it was unnecessary due to my face being not cleaned or dirty....it's because of the internal heat...yes internal heat? i'm not ure wat it means but i think got to do with my diet and daily living habits ba? late night sleep, insufficient rest and consumption of water! haha...zao gao lor....arrgghh....hope my face will really turn better....

reached home at ard 4? and i slept till 8pm!!! wahaha...wonderful rest!!!

MOS- Cindy's 19th

2007-12-21T23:05:00.000+08:00

Thursday - MOS
meet angel, peizhen, felicia and mindy for project at inter's mac...didnt knowis public holiday and the early birds, angel and peizhen, went the school when is close! sorry my mistake...i didnt realise is public holiday when i set this date for project...and when i realise it on wednesday, i only realise library did not open but thgt the school will still be open....haha..SORRRRY..my mistake!!! had MacBreafast and discuss th project..haha...95% of the time is side tracking! still talking abt chalet night and all...haha....everyone can't get enough of it! haha..when's the next class get together?! haha..

went to Ntuc to get gingerbread man dough...i want to bake it!! haha...and went to take Neoprint! haha..the last time as before we went shanghai...haha...and went starbuck cont with the discussion...apparently, nobody is in the mood...i'm stoning throughout (since day3 camp)...my mind is lack of rest....angel is not in any mood...felicia, peizhen and mindy still very excited abt the happenings of the class chalet....

went back home to catch 3hrs of nap....bath, prepare and went off to meet Sandy..Sinyee was super late and we took train asap to MOS to meet Cindy (theBirthdayGirl) and the rest(Chris, Elieen, Amos, Wenqi, Lyon, Edmund)....i only get high at ard near 3am....all the while i'm stoning and unable to get high! body is awake but not the mind!!! wa all damn li hai at shaking except me....i don wan go le la! haha...ok went off at 3.30am with Sinyee, Sandy and Lyon....

Photos uploaded above..there are still some with Cindy...(=

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY CINDY LEE!!! ((=

OTC, k505Chalet

2007-12-21T21:31:00.000+08:00

Mon-Wed
OTC throughout...had fun..everyone go thrg the difficulties and fun together as a group as a whole logistic committee...and we recieved alot of compliments from the programmers!!haha...it was fun and memorable la...though we all had some problems in the first day, but we all come over it together! haha..though tiring but fun....great to meet alot of CRAP friends...opps i mean they love to crap alooooot but i like it! haha...i had this team member abelin! omg, i love her...lol...she is really fun..haha...and i got a celebrity in my group..MarkLee!!! haha..he looks super like MarkLee and he really knows how to entertain everyone! haha..

Tuesday
i went off at evening from the camp to join the others at the CostaSandsChalet...heard all of them had really fun time on the first night...i'm jealous, felt leftout and miss alot of things but i gained smthg from the camp...HAHAHA..anw really wasted that the camp n class chalet clashed together lor! TSSSK...

we had christmas gift exchange! haha..wearing christmas hat! haha..all look so cute with that SantaClaus hat on!! haha...Ramli is the most funny one la..cos he lied to all of us he wun be able to attend the class chalet due to his thailand trip...but he attended and we did not get his SantaClaus hat but he brought his own SantaClaus hat la!!! ROFL...and jordan (his secret angel) did not buy him his christmas gift!! LOL...annd jordan very last minute, just grab a potato and present to Ramli! hahaha..see la lie to us for wat! but he is good to buy satay for us! haha...

Cam-whored and i was bad but honestly i just blurt out wat i feel and all everyone does is LOL...haha..ok and it's so christmas atmosphere la..with our SantaClaus hat, the orange lightings and the COSY-NESS of the class...haha....it's really beautiful...after gift exchange, we had a surprise entertainment from HUI WEI and JOEL!!! haha..they bought a spiderman and power ranger mask from pasa malam...haha..and HUI WEI in the spiderman mask acted like spiderman and making the spraying of the web sound..he even climb up onto the 'railings' of the stairs la like how spiderman climbs the building....HAHAHAHAHAHA...it's really funny....everyone had a great laugh...he is totally different when with the mask on and when without the mask! haha...

SecretAngels:

ZhiHeng - Felicia - KwangMing - Nurul - Joel - Jordan - Ramli - Winna - JunRong - Mindy - Angel - HuiQin - HuiWei - ZhiHeng, SzeHui - Xinyi, Yao qing - Pei zhen - Clement - Wilber - Fariq - Yao Qing.

we played sparkles too..lol...and jordan is damn idiotic to appear in every girls picture!!! we had night walk at pasir ris park...we played at the playground...wa childhood...haha..mindy and i tried the children FlyingFox pushed by FARIJ!! wa...i tell you is really FLY lor....i almost fell down but i grab with my leg and half of my butt out of the seats..and i was laughing and screaming, 'i'm dropping! i'm dropping!!...' and all the others do is to laugh with me only! .... haha...but it's really exciting...haha...Farij, rugby player with super strong force, pushed us till the end before letting us go...wa...the flying fox swing back and bounce at the same time lor...really FLLLLLY up....if it was angel, she'll be hanging on the tree!!! haha...now my thigh are all purple-black marks! we climbed Spiderweb and we have a monkey in our class...JUNRONG! wa he like chimpanzee la...swing, climb here and there so easily and quickly! hahahaha...ltr we went to play that round round thingy...we sat on top n keep letting farij and zhi heng and the othrs to turn us...while we tried to balance ourselves up there..haha....v fun...haha...

went back to chalet, angel and i slept....cos i need to reserve energy for tml's camp and angel needed to work...stupid peizhen and felicia keep laughing ang laughing non stop la! laughing at the stupid nickname jordan had for me!!! arrgh...really very not nice lor the name! felicia ni gen wo ji zu!!! is always you!

Wednesday
woke up by angel cos she promised to wake me up before she goes off...so i woke up to bath and woke felicia up..and idiot...she.....forget it...call me to call you wake up then you give me attitude! i wld have know to let you continue sleeping and i go off myself!! went back home to put things and meet sandy to go back camp together...final clash cancelled due to wet weather! arrgh...water games i did not get wet!!! cos my station need not me to get wet..TSSSSSSSK...i'll look forward to getting wet in FO!!! haha...debrief in meeting room...wa super emo...idiot sandy cry again, affects me la! .... when i'm talking alr got abit but tahan inside wa then u cry! mke me cry also...haha....night at CPF, stayed awhile and went home to rest! haha...

LESBIE and K505 ROCKS MY LIFE!!!

Bizen Sentosa

2007-12-16T00:20:00.000+08:00

Friday
went back to school at ard 2pm to prepare OTC logistics items...not bad...the log red tee shirt is nice but not the ugly dull purple!!! yucks! my grp got this guy who looks super like MarkLee (agreed with sandy)! haha..he is Desmond known as AhBu..cos he is in charge of logistic welfare..he is really a joker...had fun working with him...lol...sandy and i went off early to have dinner at TM's LongJohn and met my bro coincidentally....with one girl whom i happen to know also! never thgt they're still in contact after graduation...

back home, washed up because of the moving of logistics items from the storeroom makes me feel so dirty and dusty....meet up with sinyee at ard 10.30pm...we slack ard, check for movie time slot at AXS machine and finally Terry came to fetch us only at ard 12.45??...really gao tu lor they all...make the both of us like idiots slacking ard in Tampines and also donno to book tix first or wat....so went GVPS to watch Warlords...the time slot is 1.10am, despite the speed, we reached and go in only at 1.20am! diao..the whole cinema is full with only the 3rd row empty.....haha...so asap settle down and enjoy the show...

omg, the show is 2hr plus...ended only at 3.30am....alot of moments feel like sleeping...but the movie is not bad la...all abt cruelty of wars, brotherhood etc....i wun want war...no wat plsssssssss.....wow...Takeshi (JingChenWu)....SUAI~ haha...handsome desu! haha..plus i'm sitting at the first 3rd row..wa the view..super close and clear! with super fast speed, asap reach home, wash up and pong onto bed..BUT i can't sleep! i think cos alr pass my sleepy hours tt's y....and sooooo...mind go running ard again....eventually mind fall asleep after hours...

Saturday
haha...yes unable to wake up on time at 12.30noon to meet Bizen ppl at habour front...so i reahed Sentosa only at ard 3pm? haha..joined in the games and some JSXP memories flash back..haha..sky turns dark and other activities are indoor....met those juniors...they really don have that BZE look...more of ETCM and IT look! haha...ok while rain stop, we had volleyball and dragging of ppl into water starts...haha...SHIOK! haha...played ball in the water but was PI by guard to return to shore cos sky turning dark...annnnnnnnd....the scary thing happens! somebody had Fits attack..omg...scare me...and luckily guard is nearby...we quickly carry him onshore and let the guard do the job...cos none of us knew nth abt how to handle Fits...heng he is fine....cannot imagine if he is not gg to be fine....first time i met this kind of situation sia...shldn't elaborate more....

like piwen say, however you dislike anyone, you also wun want smthg like this to happen..haha...anyway, we all washed up and had dinner at Vivo...a great day but if no rain even better...

*PS: Bwp when we gg sentosa again?! on a SUNNY day!!! ((=

camps and chalet on 17-19! yeah...Christmas is coming~!!

Christmas approaching~

2007-12-14T00:37:00.001+08:00

had shopping with my sister at bugis and far east...like again...and TM and CS...

y am i at bugis again? haha..cos i didnt pay for my hair cut ytd! haha..i did not cheat $$ hor is the 3 of us blur till didnt realise till this afternoon...haha..Apple called to clarify and then i realise i really didnt pay cos i did not rmb-ing i did any keying in of my pin number! hahahaha..so i shun bian go down pay since i'm gg out....and met junrong coincidentally..lol..then ltr justin at far east...and alot of JAPPIES at far east and bugis...haha...actually ok la..see Jappies don have so excited...and piwen is working at Mango..haha..didnt realise till i met her...bought 2 belts and 1 watch ytd...not working and is still spending that much! =X

next two days gonna prepare logistic thingy for OTC...don feel like gg..cos make me so busy...camp also! no time for projects and apel reflection la...hais...

oh ya...i got headache to think of what to get for all of my that few drawn secret 'angels'....one i thgt is easy but to think of it...wa...another one...opposite sex....DIFFICULT!! another opposite sex...and one girlfriend...can i don get for you 2?! WAHAHA...if not drop me some hints what you all want!! ....

December NewHair..HAHA

2007-12-13T23:54:00.000+08:00

the day before the hair cut day..

left view

back view: a very slope down...

left view

and now the front! (=

ok this hair is almost same as my previous hairstyle...i mean my previous is way just before i went to shanghai....haha..right friends? maybe the difference is with the front straight tidy fringe and the back slope is even more obvious and slanted....but i liked my previous hairstyle so i also like this...hehe...haha...(=

cut it ytd after supply chain papers...the hairstylist, Apple still recognise us...jieyi felicia and me...lol..cos we went to cut together that long time ago...she recognise felicia by her always fail drivin test experience...ROFL....ok la...also cos of her DARK BIG cute(all pls vomit!) face la....haha..cheer up la felicia! and my hair is really in bad condition till she thgt i'm some china national when i walk into that shop!! ok pls don say i've always been! TSK...haha..

the hair is totally out of shape n in bad condition because of that stupid BOBO curled hair! .... and also cos of the lousy straightening ba? hais..disappointed but CHEER UP felicia! and it's like not only mine...msn-ed with qian and jas..found out they also wants to get their hair done..all in bad condition! felicia also needs to improve her hair rebonding...LOL...

wahaha...anyway now got to get my previous hair condition back before i make any other changes...cos she said my hair condition too bad so don wan make too much diff...cos last time hair still natural and quite straight....now like ...... and of course my stupid face!! arrgh...all cos of shanghai!! TSK...had appointment with doc, got improvements but still need to continue medication to keep it under control till it's totally fine! ha~ like how long will it be?! when will the day come ppl?!?!!

ok after her so much comment abt the lousy condition of my hair and the breakouts on my face....another one came...

Apple: "eh u become single eyelid ar?!"
Me, abit -.-" replied: "hahaha...no la..not enough sleep!" with felicia at the side laughing like wat...
Apple: "ya lor...i rmb ur eyes very big..."

diao...arrgh..late night sleep!! ok met sinyee at 7pm after 1hr waiting...as usual~ haha..didnt really shopped much in orchard cos by the time we started shopping is like can help them prepare closing alr! haha...lame-ing with her whole night...Image-Turn (a shop name), she says can help u turn you image....then i say might as well open a shop call PRETTY...e'one go in come out turns pretty! and guess what i really saw this shop at CS....is PrettyPal!!! wahaha..immediately sms her, 'eh really can turn pretty leh! at this shop in CS!!' hahaha...

updates..

2007-12-13T00:27:00.000+08:00

wa...long entry...basically i've forgotten what are the happenings of my past few days...anyway..my last exam in TP is over...lalala...anyway ytd heard smthg funny from my sanyi...

the patient, Lily sleeping in front of my grandma told the hospi nurse who is on night duty, smthg which i thgt is funny...for unknown reason, she is not asleep for that particular whole night...when nurse attend to her, 'i saw people catch people...fly here fly there....' WAHAHAHA...ROFL..... but no worries...is not my grandma nor anybody nearby her....is patient from opposite room....'they' might be just passing by?! haha..anw i jus thgt it's funny as she said in english to the nurse....(=

oh ya...sunday accompany poh to some open house...cos she is doing the MLN thingy...and they have this fare (open house) to intro the products n try recruiting members into this pyramid thingy...as promised poh, so i went with her all the way to Westwood Rd in Jurong! and i totally forgot abt this promise untill she sms me in the mrgn....luckily i woke up early, thinking to study for mon's BSI....and saw her sms ' hey ltr meet u __' and i even replied her asking did she sms wrong person! LOL....den i realise i got to meet her...diao..and no rush, it's still not too late to realise it...so prepared slowly n went to meet her...but my studying plans gone...(like as if i'll concentrate if i'm home)...haha...ok the open hse is alright..lots of sample...really brilliant at persuading...dinner was with parents at expo...

arrrghh...i miss Tuesday's entreprener show....TSK....miss the laughter! cos yingxian was in the show with other Bze students...TSK...nobody remind me! felicia is so supportive to wake up from slp to tune to tt show!

and pls...rangers are so into Enchanted's song...keep humming, singing and breaking the brain to think how the music is like....for the last whole week after watching the show! Mindy watched the movie again today! and angel search in youtube for that movie! peizhen send the songs thrg email to us! wa..all so crazily in love with tt show! all enchanted! haha...true love kiss..ha~ pls whr got anyone faint and wakes up by her/his true love kiss de?! really fairytales....haha..

Disappointed

2007-12-04T21:05:00.001+08:00

Tuesday

happily went to school for Apel3 at 11am...after Apel, lucky draw-ed the christmas gift exchange thingy...ok..first round,my fault i missed out SzeHui's name and so winna didnt draw anyone...so we re-draw again...this round i'm sure i did not miss out anyone's name with szehui, jordan and nurul counting the number of people for me..! and ok we all drawn....and guess what...short of one again! i donno what happen and someon suggested trying again...and Joel said, "aiya no need again la..so ma fan...e'one just buy smthg, we then draw lots and exchange on chalet tt day..." wth..and they go off...WTF i did so much for?

ok i know writing out the names and tearing the paper doesn't mean really much...but it is the EFFORT and THOUGHT i had....e'one agrees for gift exchange...when unsuccessful, e'one just as they like, happy as they are and forget about e'tin and make such stupid decision....with no idea of whom to get the present for, how to buy sia! and funny huh...don wan to re-draw again during Apel and rather re-draw name lots again during CHALET! FUCK!

FUN huh...this is not troublesome...this is LESS TROUBLESOME as compared to re-drawing the names again at that point of time...now to me, i really think i shldn't be tt concern abt the fact that i'm unable to attend the first night and spent the whole 3D2N with the class...who cares man...i can don even care abt it! and i'm not bringing any presents to the chalet....unless everyone is serious abt the gift exchange thingy! if not everything seems like only the few of us are enthu and serious abt it....

i'm really disappointed....we did try... sometimes however the amount of effort or thoughts you have, things just doesn't turn out the way you want...sometimes if things are still the same despite your effort or thoughts to improve or change, i'll not make anymore or put in much of my effort and thoughts into it!!!

angel i take back what i've said last night....i realise i can't live to what i say....treat it as shit....
last year = shit = heck care = whatever = i wun qiang qiu to do anything but to grad with a diploma and friendships of those few clinques that i had......

Rangers Outing: Enchanted cum Marche

2007-12-04T20:32:00.000+08:00

Purple Line: Hougang (We're LATE~! because MindyTan has late hormones!)

Below: Marche with Christmas decoration...

Can you believe ANGEL ate so much~! HAHA..

Angel and Felicia with ChristmasTree, Mindy sells bread with angel~ haha..

weekends had been too relax...monday with no lesson and rangers meet up at Vivo for Enchanted movie cum Marche lunch....it's FUNNY...haha...and we met the channel 5 PoliceAndTheif malay guy....omg..his eyes...mesmerising...got electricuted! haha..SUAI~! ROFl...

24hours thinking of ways to become fairer and...she THOUGHT she will be fairer like this! WAHAHAHA!!

Omg DESSERTS!

Both of them got up successfully...

Jordan got up and down the cow like he always ride on a cow!

While Mindy got up and got down UGLY-LY!!! it is really damn unglam! look below!

peizhen said smthg very funny...she is always not concern about her friend's safety and instead about those......We are all so worried about Mindy's safety in getting down the cow...felicia, angel and i were busy holding, help balancing the cow. and Mindy...

Peizhen: "Be careful of the cow! it is not cheap k! (zhe tou nu bu pian yi hor!)" we all ROFL!!

tt time in east coast where i'm trying very hard to balance on the roller blade and she said,"Be careful of the ANTS!!" ..... she is a WONDERFUL friend...haha..Don't worry Peizhen we will still LOVE YOU! (=

Next was Topshop..thought of doing our project thing but in the end....

we try on the boots and shoes...hehe...tt's comfortable and CUTEEEE! AHAHA....

people wear LittleMiss collections on their body everywhere on the streets...i wear them on my FOOT in Topshop ONLY!!! HAHAHAHA!!

She have been ZhiLian-ING with people's camera handphone non-stop!!!

We cam whore with our sunglass...(felicia) no tt belongs to RiverIsland's...ahhh i see one unique wallet in RiverIsland and i like it alot but it cost 53 bucks!!! 0.o

XI NU AI LE!!

Movie Time! Entering into the Fairy World of Analysia... -.-"

Enchanted was reallly FAIRYTALE....haha..felicia was so into it and even applause when the princess got kiss and woke up....dot....the music was nice...the songs keeping humming in our mind...haha...felicia pls go find the songs! lala lala la~ lala lala la~ HAHAHAHA...

Next on the list:

30 days in the night
I'm Legend
Golden Compass!!!

the house that contain more than 40years of memories....

2007-12-02T15:43:00.000+08:00

saturday
i put BWP members and 'preident' aeroplane...'istana' open hse but i didnt go...cos i went grandma hse to pray ancestors and by the time i reached here, it was alr late...plus i had heavy brunch there and impossible to go 'istana' to continue eating...went to visit grandma with cousins n all instead...SoRRY~...i apologise to BWP...haha...homecooked food is still the best! (= cs i realy enjoy eating my auntie and mum's de cooking...haha...there are moments where my sanyi and mummy mentioned abt ah por....and it's like...hais...couldn't avoid anyone to mention abt her...i don wanna get affected, pretending not to hear anything and just walk away....the tim spentd there really brings back alot of memories....the childhood times where most of our cousins gathered at her house, playing, having fun, slacking and eating non-stop.....got that feeling which is good...but still smthg is lack....

at the house, alot of times the mention abt this house gg to be sold....'aiya no need clean alr la...since gg to sell away liao...' ..... 'he(ah gong) wants to sell away of course must paint nice nice before selling ma.....' and etc....really don wish that this house will be sold....all our memories are contain in there....all our memories comes from there....not even us, the kids' memories but also our elders....all our parent's memories all there...can u imgaine how old is that house...how many years of memories this hse contain? it's really a waste to sell it away...i wun forget, we kids always thought of buying the next door unit, knocking down the wall so we can have a bigger living room for the so many of us....i always thgt this will come true one day......

Bye Judging!

2007-12-02T14:43:00.000+08:00

yea the hectic nights are over~!!! really smthg wat all poly students will do in their final year ba? haha..ok tuesday night start projecting at 9pm till next mrgn 7am! and i went to sleep till 8am before gg to school to continue rushing for the 5pm dateline! my god...my brain is dying like felicia's mind, though in btw she still got sleep till almost cannot wake up! we both are like...cannot think anymore alr....she call me to think i call her to think...haha...after handing up the report, back at home resting and woke up at ard 11pm to study for CRM quiz! .... ok we slept at ard 1am (it's the most early night lor!)....haha..i'm feeling damn relax tt wednesday night..cos i no need to rush anything but to study the quiz....which my mind totally cannot rmb anything.....

thursday quiz..ha-ha-ha....the whole lecture is copying la...HAHAHA....MCQ was ok but as for the drawing of wat auomated diagram..oh please~..who knows man! haha..so everyone was united and helpful..all he zhou yu kuai de help each other finish the quiz..LOL....after quiz, felicia nd i join winna, km, hw, nurul and xy at the Bze CU to print our appendix with the free papaer e got...hahaha....and our class ppl are all damn gossips n jian..haha...ok created some topic and laughed in the lab.....felicia and i go had or judging presentation layout done and dismiss...went o NPCC gathering with rebecca, rachel, sinyee and zhenyi...haha...as usual, we are the jokers or in fcat it shld only and always be rebecca...had been laughing non-stop, ot even a minute where we can not don laugh....even when MrLeong was giving serious EMO speech, we're till crackin jokes! haha...anyway MrLeong is stepping down from the teaching career! he doesn't want to tell us his plans yet...haha...he aged alot...and skin is even thicker now!

back at home, start projecting again~! at 12pm...my idiot bro was using the desktop earlier on...i did told him that i needed to use but his reply is like...so? he also need to use in those wtf way...cos he had been having exam the last few days and like busy with sch work also....so i decided to try use my aotah lappie to start first....and after i switched on my laptop, i turn to look at the desktop and i saw ANIME! wth...'wa lao...i want to do my project then you watc ANIME!!!' arrgh...

he kept quiet and let me used only after watching tt episode...stopped projecting at 6.30am...woke up at 9++am...meet felicia at mac to do last min preparation before gg to school...at school...cont with those undone part nd went to lab to prepare...haha...anybody need spokeperson for NewMoon Chicken Essence?! haha..i can be one...cos my mum have been making me to drink one bottle every mrgn for these few midnights of burning oil...! wahaha...

the judging, did ans wrongly cos i panick.....was quite guilty for fearing to drag felicia down as we are a team....but i feel alright awhile ltr....cos no point in thinking and i'm excited abt the post-judging programme! haha..who knows...it turn out felicia feeling very disappointed in herself...ha~...don worry she still alive and we had late lunch and shopped with BWP at bugis....joined our class bowling at marina square.....i have no talent in bowling! haha...angel is suay to be in my team! haha..

the others went for supper while jordan, felicia and i went to esplanade and sat outside NoSignboard retuarant and chatted till 1am+ whr felicia and i really needed to rest...after that sleepless rusing project night...it is really terrible...everyone sure aged alot after 3.2! my skin is dry and in addition the pimples....wa....alot of moments feel like jumping down from the building...haha...it's so stress la....but now...all over!

Dragon Boat Tradegy

2007-11-27T21:25:00.000+08:00

school today? i'm crying in lecture room today....after hearing mindy say abt the dragon boat tradegy issue...donno why but sadness just fill and tears will drop...hais...what is life? why death? why these people? bright future ahead....all hopes got crashed....emotional hurt....smthg which cannot be cure easily...i'm sure nobody or nth can replace them....i didnt know what to say but it's like...life is always unfair and is smthg i didnt know why!!! who can tell me?

one case, felicia's bro friend....his friend is waiting to come home in singapore to bring his gf home to let parents see and maybe to discuss about marriage...and now...e'tin gone...both family n gf will sure be damn damn sad....i did not watch any news on the tv abt this issue....and i only heard abt it from felicia and mindy....and it is alr so heart-breaking to just hear abt it leh! imagine you're involved in it, you watched the news, you're their family and friends....HAIS.... :'(
why ar? unfair..death....tradegy....

today's ccom, rafiq also mentioned abt this...he said this...

"life is unpredictable, so if can learn to be good to people, learn to be kind and do not find faults on others...learn to forgive and forget! so that people will only rmb the good side of you..."

forgive and forget...it's not that easy....everyone just keep saying...life and death is part and parcel of life....but why didnt they question why? why can they accept and say this sentence out that easily? do they say that just to console someone or do they really unstd the chim-ness of it?! maybe i might accept and unstd it before..but now i know i do not unstd and i question abt it...

today's tears is not cos affected by my personal issues but it's really...this tradegy really makes one feel heart-breaking....everyone of the 5 of them who are dead has bright future ahead of them....the scene of the whole team kneeling down in front of the sea, the news that the 5 bodies all floated up andwas found together on the same day....it somehow shows how united they are even they're dead...it's like....i keep questioning...why ar...why? alot of things i don unstd....anybody unstd?! :'(

3am=early, 5am=late!

2007-11-27T03:20:00.000+08:00

Reporting current time: 3.21am of 27/11/2007, Tuesday morning

(take 10mins off to blog....)

ha~ it's still early man! haha...what is late? late=near to 5am!!

yea almost everyday will take a quick 2-3hrs nap at 8pm or 9pm and start working at 11pm or 12 midnight.....annnnnnnnnnd.....slept only at 4+am to 5am...by 5am i will shut my desktop and all the stupid MajorProject windows and off i PONG onto my bed, hugging my bolster and cuddle under my big Mickey Mouse comforter!! haha...

saturday
was at school the whole afternoon with felicia and jieyi doing MP...till the library close at 5.30am and felt so HONOURED to have one security guard and one librarian escorting the 3 of us out of the library and witnessing the 'closing down of TP library'....ok i mean the end of operation for the day...i went off leaving felicia and jieyi in engine block continuing with their work....visited grandma and went to some distant relative' BBQ...it's an invitation so we all went and had our dinner there....oh please i almost starve to death when we finally reach the pit....

they are kuku to book a pit that is like those last few pits at the end of the EastCoastPark....how far? it is that far where we all walked past the whole stretch of CoastaSandsResorts, the SeafoodRestuarants(omg looking at those ppl sitting outdoor enjoying their delicious seafood dinner!) and the EastCoastFoodCentre! and it is not there yet...we still have to walk some distance before we see the ulu pit....diao....smthg unique abt their BBQ...they have steamboat there! a steamboat cum BBQ..quite a not bad idea ar? haha...in addition the steamboat pot is those very antique kind one that uses charcoal!!! haha...damn that night was not at all windy and all of us are sweating like hell...

went to fetch yin from WhiteSandsCoffeeClub...yea she works there and transferring to T3 this week....was feeling very tired but no choice still have to do MP...arrgghh...and i slept at 5am sharp!

sunday
i will not make my body suffer...haha...though i slept 'early' at 5am in the mrgn, i make sure i sleep for 8hrs before i wake up! haha...woke up at 1pm and had lunch and medicine(hais..with this kind of life, medicine can still help cure my pimples meh!)...start work at ard 3pm after watching several scv shows which really helps me destress...cos it makes me laugh! haha...did not visit grandma and did MP....slept early at 8pm thinking of waking up at 11pm but i woke up only at 1am...cos alarm set wrongly....diao....

monday
meet angel n peizhen 10am at mushroom...had breakfast w/o felicai at bispark and we all start discussing supply chain case study at 12noon? starting i'm clear where we are going at and brain juice is still producing....at the late evening, brain juice seems to be finishing where both angel and i aren't thinking anymore and just crap....dot...we witness the sunset again....leaving the library only at ard 8pm....donno what happen to peizhen..she's not thinking..haha...and in fact quite blur...and angel seems pek chek abt her...haha...anw she create joke k! haha..she make us laugh!!! haha...i think peizhen's mind is thinking of angel n yaoqing's dream where our zhen jie got married to her qing ge ge! ROFL!!!

dined with felicia and i waited for my parents to fetch me home....cos they are at nearby....and tried sleeping at 9+pm as soon as i got home....i only manage to fall asleep at 10++! and i woke up at 11.30pm by my sister....as usual...when i manage to fall into sleep...sure have alot of disturbance like PHONE CALL and QUINCY....arrgh...asap online n finish supply chain slides and start on MP...

ok my only surviving k505 classmate, SPY is also down already....it's 4.16am! ok got to sleep if not tml there will be high chance i can't get up!!! arrgh...GOOD NIGHT!

let's all CHIONG for the last part of MP these few days till friday!!! ((=

Food Fair

2007-11-20T23:12:00.000+08:00

Monday was spent in school library doing project with SPY....

Tuesday school school school....had supply chain quiz 1...alright...shldn't fare too badly...time past fast with numerous photo taking session with rangers....after school, mindy peizhen, SPY and i went to food fair at expo hall 5..omg...mindy really display all her auntie side out! haha...both SPY and i thgt we both will be the most auntie but it turns out we are nothing as compared to mindy tan! haha..we see her auntie-ness makes us hide our aunite actions....LOL...mindy tan u win!!! haha...mindy tan bought quite alot...i meet my parents there and bought alot too! haha...

back at home after wash up, i went to sleep! haha....cos my shoulder is going to break from carrying my heavy bag....headaches and yawns from all the squeezing at the hall...plus the smelly smoke of all the cookings....haha...

cindy called and told me jean thgt of calling me back to Husk to work for weekdays but i rejected...cos i do not dare to accept, making myself busy and unable to cope btw school and work.....but i wan to earn money...cos i've got alot of things to spent on!!! haha..whatever...now focus on academic and i can work all i want after graduation or even for the rest of my life!!! (=

*will upload pictures taken asap when SPY upload..*

Chalet

2007-11-18T15:46:00.001+08:00

my butt aches! my tighs ache!!!

haha...all thanks to the exercising at shota's house...tried learning squash which is not easy...i only manage to catch the ball twice...all the while i'm picking up balls..haha...sandy and i left at 3+pm...i went home to rest, watched fu man ren jian and bath...after bathing, i went to meet sinyee and we travelled down to chunwai's chalet....

cindy came only at about 10plus...both of us and wenqi sat Vick' car to fetch cindy at the interchange...followed terry's car to fetch yiting home to change....cos Vick's car need terry's car that aranda sticker den can park inside aranda....nope the chalet is at downtown but they parked their car at aranda....i enjoy sitting speed car (like my dad's)! wahaha...it's really fun...thought ytd night the speeding is more than my father usual speed and i shld worry abt my life but i'm enjoying it...haha...it's thrilling and fun..i love the feeling of fast speed.....it's really like.....the feeling is so free...haha..ok i know.....dots..haha...

ok so slacked and eat there...like esss gathering sia! cos alot of esss schoolmates like wang heng, wei ping, nicholas, terry, ruben, yiting, hui wen and the 3 of us...wei ping currently serving NS with a botak head like monk! haha..his face really like monk..LOL...actually i'm not close with them or neither do we all talk...haha...and weird everyone gather in tt chalet...

played bluff which was totally not fun cos i donno how to bluff! arrgh...haha..so we (ah jon, wenqi, sinyee, me, yiting and cindy) changed to one idiotic game...starting with actions of mona lisa and hercules..we invent new actions ourselves like superman, statue of liberty(by ah jon) and zhao cai mao...hahaha...created alot of stupid jokes....forefit is to drink water cos yiting don drink...omg feel so bloated...we others stayed till 3am+ and chunwai drove vick's car to send cindy,sinyee,yiting and me home...slept at ard 4am....

Sunday was visiting grandma at bvh, did BSI and studied chpt 1 of supply chain quiz....

CCN day

2007-11-16T22:05:00.000+08:00

this year's CCN day looks fun and crowded....but it's actually crowded with alot of stalls tender...LOL...all mending the stalls...not alot of ppl actually...it's crowded n stuffy...make us(who is helping teo to distribute flyers) so tired...only distribute flyers ad target ppl for donation only leh...so tired....cos of the humid weather and the stuffy ennvironment ba? sandy's dog helped us to get quite an amt of donation...haha...$1 per touch! LOL...of course the main purpose for her dog's visit to TP is not to help us get donation...she came for the dog grooming...really DOG cos got that DOG SMELL! hahaha..LOL...and got this lecturer after knowing that it's $1/touch, he touch till gao gao den donate us $5...ROFL...easy money ar...haha...

lunch at Pasta Mania...vivi sandy piwen felicia and i gossips and talk about those XIANG DANG NIAN de stories...LOL...really OLD...felicia say i really changed alot...changed mature..feelings and looks...last time looks very energetic and bubbly and lively like that...got tt nian qing ren de feel...but now....haha...really change liao..mature...didnt really bother by what felicia and sandy comment about bein mature...cos i think, it's time to be mature at this age....in fact i think i need to be even more mature! haha...thought of uploading some of the old pictures up to see the diff...haha...but i think forget it..LOL..cos too many alr! plus i don wan ppl come bombing my tag board blaming me to put their DANG NIAN de pictures up....LOL...it's really fun looking back at all the photos and blog entries! ROFL!!!

travel on bus 72 again! :/ luckily i sleep and didnt think too much...

BUT...upon seeing her...ahhhhhhhhh...it all comes again!!! arrgh...

really afraid of losing her.....i miss her everything...i haven return her all the kindness or yang yu zhi en that she had given me.....really...i haven did enough of filial piety towards her.....and i really feel very bad and is full of guilt.....ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~! before...i told myself, i must let my children call her great- grandmother...i want her to take care and dote on my children like how well she have taken care of me...i want to let her see who will be the boyfriend of mine...i want her to attend my wedding, witnessing the growing up of me....i want to share alot of things with her...i have not started sharing anything with her yet! now all the chances are slim....i really miss her....i still cannot get it...why...why is it her? why is our family? it's always sighs and bu gan yuan in me.....i really......i donno...i donno how to handle this...i donno how to view this matter....i really miss her voice..i miss her calling me AH QIN....i miss her praising me....i miss her laughter....i miss together with my cousins making her laugh non-stop.....it's always fun with her....

she is everywhere in my life..really....today i painted my nails....if she's able to talk and move, she will hold my hands close to her eyes (as her eyes sight is falling) and praise that it's nice or maybe sometimes some not so good weird funny comments that will make us laugh....but i just enjoy her comments....every actions of hers will leave a big smile on my face.....all i think is her.....i miss chatting with her....how i hope she appears in my dream every night chatting with me.....

~~is all sighs and regrets.....i miss addressing you as MA!!! i still can call you MA..but can you really hear? do yu know if is qin who is calling you???~~

EMO...

2007-11-15T22:42:00.000+08:00

despite yesterday night sleeping early at around 12 midnight....i woke up only at 8.35am for my 9am lab! lol...and is felicia's call that made me realise that i'm late!!! hahaha...i'm deprive from enough sleep! so today went home after all the lect at 3pm..and slept till 5.30pm before travellin to yio chu kang with sister to visit grandma...dinner with parents at bedok 416 after sending ah gong home...

emo emo..emo on bus 72....always on this bus...arrgh!

tml CCN day...helping teo to mend the booth...

saturday....gg shota's house for sports cum bbq....den at night meeting cindy and sinyee to go downtown east....another bbq...BUSY~! haha..

shit...OTC camp and K505 chalet....HOW??? want to go k505 chalet for 2 nights cos they(mindy and SPY) tempting me with activities! they want to night cycled together with whole class without me!! arrgh! eh you all don like that leh...!

Miss shanghai these days

2007-11-14T00:31:00.000+08:00

i donno why these few days i especially miss shanghai....maybe cos too stress up...miss the life over there ba? even my dream's setting is in some china production area!

out of no where during lesson or on the road on while doing something....the feeling just come....images of some shanghai places appear....dot...

i think the life back here is too hectic and stress up already...agree Jas? agree Qian?

sooo..pek enjoy life over there!!! ah bin u also! jun wern u also!!! i think ys don online de ba? HAHAHA..i miss you people! (=

Stress tuesday

2007-11-13T23:38:00.000+08:00

met rangers at 11am sharp except MINDY TAN! haha..she own each of us a Macdonald meal already but angel only got Mac's ala carte...haha...cos angel own each of us dessert except mindy..LOL...had brunch at bis school and discussed BSI project...seems like there is no outcome..haha..

went for supply chain tutorial...wa...our class will never be quiet as usual..except during rafiq's ccom...so my group went out of classroom for a more quiet environment to focus on our study case...but it's still the same...voices of laughings and shoutings of our female classmates are still heard clearly...dot...

i hate tues...stressful day...ccom...hais...always more stress after ccom...cos it's all about MP report again! AGAIN!!! .... went library to look for fyp awhile n went off to bugis with vivi n felicia...

dine at V8 with the rest of BWP members...went kinokuniya awhile n went home! someone with significant status send an order that she wants to shop at bugis so we, fellow loyal members, eagerly agreed...AND.....we didnt shop and went all the way to bugis to just have a meal at V8! so fun huh! nobody (at least me) don't want to shop alone...ok whatever, abit angry and feel mo ing qi miao....but now..aiya WHATEVER la...people's mood changes..mine too...

OH NO! i just realise i got OTC camp crashed with k505 CHALET!!! OH NO NO NO!!! exactly the same dates, same day!!! 17 dec to 19 dec!!! SHIT! F***! how sia?! i can don go OTC but go FOC/FOW????

I LOVE SINGLEHOOD! (=

2007-11-13T01:07:00.000+08:00

I LOVE SINGLEHOOD!

haha..i donno why i especially love singlehood that much now...maybe cos i don need to report to one more person about my whereabouts other than my parents which is alr enough...maybe i have more time with friends, family and own things....maybe cos i don have to worry more things? i don need to fear more things? i don need more troubles? haha..or maybe....RELATIONSHIP is not in my list!!! haha...something have overtake it by alot alot...haha...that's my FAMILY! (= FRIENDS of course! haha...

i do envy sweet loving couples...i don't promote people not gg into r/s...but i will analyse to them what i think...i don't encourage break-ups unless a break up is the best solution...i don't rush to get one unless it's time to...haha...i know the kind of love or care or whatever you got from your the other part is different from the kind you got from friends n family...but i know i don't need it now...haha..

weird ar...i want to be old hag or old virgin (lao chu nu) and don get marry? NO! haha..

before there are times where i yearn for one..but this always don't last long and in addition to the situation now...i know i don't even need or yearn for one! not even a single bit ba? so far not even a little bit....haha...why nobody suspect smthg wrong with me ar? i mean..why nobody ever suspect that i might not like guys..haha..hmmm..thinking why my family nobody suspect...haha...nonono...i don mean i am crooked..i mean i'm straight and i'm attracted to guys..haha...

anyway....relationships are a WANT and NOT a NEED to me! so i can live without it..but not for long la! haha...

why this post? purely bo liao..got abit of ling gan..and giving answers to those with puzzled face when i told them i'm single...they ask me why and i also puzzled...cos i have no answer to why am i single for so long...HAHA...and also to those whom keep encouraging me to go into r/s?

to piwen and sandy: go on to find one for this december and next feb! haha..our pact since 2006 january right? haha...

Jappies

2007-11-13T00:47:00.000+08:00

Sunday

little india has not enough road lights! it's so dark! =X haha...i mean alot of indians..duh! ya as i say india! haha...crossing road there allows me to display my skills of crossing shanghai's road! WAHAHA...is must heck care of the car and chiong one lor! HAHAHA...sandy kana scare by me..lol...and...omg...DnG is shuai...'swimming smoker' is cool! Nick Yeo n Black Ranger (ren zhe) is KAWAII neh!!! haha...all handsomemu la! haha...flower eat pattern all come out liao! the jap girls are also pretty...face complexion damn good!!! haha...not enough time to interact with them...too bad...we didnt manage to take pictures with them also!!!

we (piwen, sandy, me) dine at PS and chatted....girls' topic...we're getting OLD!!! omg~ can't help thinking of that...future? work? study? boyfriend? marriage? HAHA...those whom have discuss abt all these topics hld know what i talking about....female really has short youth span...haha...guys...ha~ you all have alot k!!! **** haha...flirts, flings, gossips etc...alot are in the conversation..haha...so sandy u got an answer from our conversations? haha..

shopped at far east..ya like AGAIN...for 3 continous days! this time i fail to keep my hands to myself..i bought nail polish, which i don really need but i just like the colour, from SkinFood...and the cardigan with Sandy Tan! TSK!! oh ya..one whole day keep calling "lesbie~" with her hands hugging to my hand...of course i rejected and pull my hands away...i can't stand so er xin! ya la...i not girl...haha..reached home at ard 11plus...called cindy n hung up at around 1am? haha..(=

Happy 20th Birthday Jordan Tay!

2007-11-11T13:33:00.000+08:00

the trip to shankar's place was cancelled..so meeting sandy piwen n maybe felicia joining us in some event...omg i think it's gg to be fun! haha..

ok yesterday(saturday)...yesterday's topic at bvh was what if you (16 -17teens) were to be employed to work with some relatives and had to be get scolded....

so both my sanyi and i (Team A) was debating with my mum and eryi(Team B)...seems interesting eh? haha...

Team A's stand is...if you want to work for relatives ok...fine..you must know how to divide the line btw work and personal life clearly...so you think teens can think that clearly? and do you think now those teens will want to get scolded? can they take it? ok of course if you are at wrong, you deserve the scoldings...ok so...scold alr..you can tahan ma? will forgive him meh? ok not a matter of forgiveness...is a matter of you'll still have to face your relatives after all these....ok whatever it is....i think teens now are not that simple...and attitude might not be as good as the past teens...and is like...endurance....the exposure to the outside world....

Example like my sister...who have just finish N level...still new to outside worklife...at home, she's cry baby..little scoldings or naggings....she cry...wat do u think if she's to be outside working...whr ppl don even care who you're! they don think you're new or whatever..they just need capable ppl.... (oh please ong hui yin it's just an example...i'm not pin pointing at you! it just happen that you are just right for this example and mummy intro u to the work..ha~and ytd when i'm talking...i'm not referring to you only...and i'm NOT SCOLDING or agitated towards you working or whatsoever! i'm pek chek with mummy not gettin my point!)

i think Team B think too highly or too surface about these days teens.....i think they did not think in now those teens' de mindset....i donno if u all unstd wat i'm trying to say....haha...

anyway Team B's point of view is all last time they all go work those kind...whatever unhappy about work or abt boss or upper management's arrangment...you've got to tolerate....but do you think in this century teens who are especially implusive n hot tempered will think right and properly to act in situations?

i think i have more to say but am lazy! haha..yea tt's the topic at bvh...haha..

i meet felicia at Braddell station n take train to Orchard....all the while when we are at orchard, we are busy contacting n sms-ing with peizhen n mindy..haha..cos we're giving jordan a surprise! haha..so felicia and i bought Choco Exotic from St Leaven (actually same as four leave) but felicia insisted it's more class one! haha...and when it's time we went to the field (whr the flea markets are) beside Cine to prepare...we stand there v long n it's warm! cos we rush there and we're nervous! fear that jordan will be able to see us...haha...so mindy n peizhen blindfold him with his tt snowcap and bring him to the field....haha...

tadaaa...Happy Birthday to....followed by chinese version with Felicia as the lead and the only survivor...HAHAHA..cos the rest of us are laughing like helll! haha..laughing at what i'm not sure...haha...and we picnic there like bangla under those trees at that dark dark area!!! haha...
Birthday Boy..Jordan Tay!

Bangla's Picnic! with Long John fastfood! LOL

all Rangers with Jordan Tay but angel not around!

the cake is superb k! haha..everyone enjoy it...ltr vincent, his fren hua, huiwei, yao qing and xinyi joined us at the Blanga's picnic! haha...and we went Balcony to slack n drink...mindy's walk slanted! haha...felicia and i took cab home..she start cam-whoring as soon as we get up the cab at Heeren to PIE to street 32 (her house)! non stop leh...i was talking on the phone n had to stop to take picture with her! -.-... had a good night sleep! (=

11-17nov Schedule

2007-11-10T14:25:00.000+08:00

Upcoming Week's Schedule:

Sunday:

Elf's Shankar's Birthday Open House (don even know the address yet lor!)
Late afternoon - Joining Piwen, Sandy and Felicia to bring some Jappies ard the island! YEAH..((=
~~Rangers Night Cycling~~ - shld be cancel due to school work! )=

Monday:

Still doing on Chpt 3 and chpt 4 of report? (felicia?)
TPSU FOC/FOW Log-go meeting at 6pm...

Tuesday:

Evening: ELF senior farewell night at 7pm ba?

Saturday:

Chalet and BBQ

that's all for now...so BWP, friday on ma? haha...i can join u all k! haha..

Viva, Bee Movie, BWP at orchard

2007-11-10T13:24:00.000+08:00

Yeah another end of a week of datelines....weekends will be spent relaxing n enjoying to get prepare for the upcoming datelines n stress! haha..

ytd Viva presentation...i was quite not satisfied with myself...abit of disappointed but we did not bad, looking at our grades.....nvm...do better for the next few presentations! esp. Judging day! omg...it's on the 29 nov...end of this month!!! ..... both of us woke up as late as 10+ whr we 'aimed' to meet at 10am! haha...if we are able to wake up at 8+ to meet at 10am...i think we are robots instead of humans....cos we slept only at 5am in thr mrgn!!! my latest record...i wonder when is the day i work till the next day and i don't have to sleep where i go straight to school...haha..i can foresee the day is coming soooon! haha...

after Viva, i went orchard excitedly to meet the BWP via express518.... alone without felicia of course...do i have to always be seen with her?! NO..I CAN DO WITHOUT HER K! haha...shld ask if she can do w/o me?! hahahaha...i slept on the bus worrying i'll miss my stop! haha..i saw eugene n his classmate guo liang..haha..ok hi-bye with a smile and off i speed to Heeren...haha...i self-question why i'm walking so fast (as usual)...haha...so i bought Mac's Mudpie Mcflurry and walk slowly to Heeren..haha...eerrrwww...the Mcflurry is disappointing cos it's too sweet for me! shld have spent my $$$ on those traditional ice-cream! haha...neverthless, I still LOVE ICE-CREAM! haha..

I guess i've miss out alotof gossips for not joining them at sakae...haha...but it's also lucky because i'm escape from being one of their target of gossiping!! haha..esp with the presence of Tan Shan Di (my lesbie)!! she always like to be suspicious of my personal life, start questioning like in the police station with a spot light shine on me, dig out secrets or make me blurt some scandals news out....haha...even tho i don have any to tell her! haha...just like while walking to far east, i randomly ask her a what-if question...

me: hey what if you one day on the road saw me wit someone fat...erm not fat la..maybe big sized..
sandy (grab my hands with her biggest eyes) : huh? ahhh..who who? quick say..which one?
me: don have la! is a what-if question only....
sandy: impossible out of no where ask this kind of question..quick tell me...
me (thinking i shldn't have ask) : ya la...nth la..cos i just saw a couple so i ask la...so can foresee me with this kind of person???

haha..and goes blah blah blah..yea tt's my lesbie...so CONCERN abt my personal life...abt all my scandals....haha..

next...almost bought a cardigan with her! always drag me spent together with her...another thing is havianas! wth...haha..i've bought 2 pairs of havianas with her already! haha...she give me excuses like camps coming so we need new one for camp...haha...such lousy excuses she can come up with to persuade me to buy hur...haha...

sandy if u persuade longer i might really buy the cardigan! hahaha..heng ar! but havianas really ex ar...lol...have been trying to save money after coming back from Shanghai! haha...went off at ard 9+pm...i meet sinyee at tamp station and we went mac...i ate cos i've to eat medicine..actually also cos i hungry la..didnt have any proper meal the whole day leh! DIET! haha..if not really need to DING liao! haha...right Jas n Qian?! haha..been busy the whole day to prepare the Viva...Thanks Jieyi's Kinder Bueno..help me to survive..haha...I'm bueno-ing! haha..(=

met chunwai n we watched Bee Movie...a cartoon movies...-.-" haha...i laughed alot because of the stupid-ness of the show..haha...walked home after that...since it's near...to me la...haha...I LOVE TO WALK! haha..chunwai and me walked sinyee to her house lift cos hers reahed first...chunwai then walked me home and he then go home...i called felicia to discuss smthg n slept at 3am! haha..

oh one more thing...THANKS RANGERS for the VIDEO...haha...we didnt know abt thie video till we're back in school...haha...they gave us a CD with slideshow n video in it the day before we leave for Shanghai...we didnt know there's video...haha...so both felicia and i watched it only ytd while preparing for Viva...haha..so funny...yes..we're touched la k..didnt cry but it's on the verge only la...got the want to cry de feeling but wun cry out those kind...hahaha..anyway...
THANKS!!!

TO SPY: u better make a copy for me to keep also!!!!

Mag's 18th BBQ (misses)

2007-11-08T16:58:00.000+08:00

ytd was rushing in the day and relaxing at night!

felicia and i were blurred enought to think that the dateline for handing up of out chpt 1 n 2 was at 5pm which actualy was at 12 noon! and know what? i'm still sleeping at home at 10.30++am...and felicia haven got up...i recieved the news from sandy and this news really wake me up...haha...i am still half asleep....and we rush down to sch by cab at 11.30am...haha....and we rush to Blk 14 concourse level to finish those parts that aren't done yet...of course we unable to finish it by 12 noon...haha...so in the end with the help of vivi n jieyi, we managed to hdn in our report only at ard 2pm...haha...it was rushing la...cos everyone keep running ard concourse to get their report printed n bind....haha..and we both are still sitting down there typing our report! hahaha...and my stupid ao tah laptop so slow....worst than tortise....i need to reformat it...i need to treat it with medicine cos got alot of virus...but how?

after those rushing hours, together with BWP and jieyi, we went to iZone to grade our OSIP supervisors and we (except jieyi) all signed up for E-guides together...out of the 6 of us..3 was signed up unwillingly...hahaha..and we (sandy, me, piwen) made them joined...usin excuses like get more CCA points so can go Uni, last year must enjoy, join le den decide and blah blah blah...haha...tho they know is just all excuses..but they still join! haha...i feel like saying,"That's what we call friends!" but i hesitant and decided that they are my friends if they go for the camp and the actual day event! hahaha...as if they'll be threaten! haha...hey but we all are really great FRIENDS to FELICIA SIM k! cos we all signed up for vegetarian meal with her! we know her pattern...she wun wan to declare she is vegetarian and rather don have any meals! -.-" haha...

this is the front, angel side only, we signed up vegetarian meal with her....at the back, the dark side of this friendship, we don eat the vegetarian meal n rather starve to have roti prata for supper! HAHAHA..!

we went TM to have PASTA MANIA....cos student discount...haha..felicia's fav...haha...great late brunch...and shopped around TM and CS with my heavy bag n lousy laptop! ... my back is breaking la from all the hours of sitting in front of computer every night...so i keep finding seats to sit instead of shopping...haha...my body is also shutting down...haha..

i went off early and travel alone to bvh to visit ma (my ah por)....i call her ma since young and didnt change..haha...donno y...but i feel comfortable calling her ma...ok so i slept on the bus and i did not miss my stop..haha..so random ar...cos i donno how to continue....

we all went to the BBQ at east coast and reached there at 10pm...it's my cousin's 18th birthday...BBQ can do what? eat and BBQ lor...but did bond and crap with cousins....funny....it was really relaxing for me the whole night...i forgot all abt school! haha...

alot of moment we all thought of 11 nov...the last BBQ we all had before she got into an accident...and my 18th birthday..also BBQ...everyone just rmb n thought of her n talk about her....

if she is here, she can help my cousin prepare like how she helped me for my BBQ...(she enjoy doing all these and she is best at cooking delicious yummy mouth watering food!)

if she is here, as soon as she reach the BBQ pit, she will be busy unpacking all the food and prepare for BBQ, she will start to unroll the aluminium foil and start to wrap the corn, sweet potato, stingray etc....(my sanyi, ah li and i were talking about it on the van while to the park..) we were smiling following with sighs behind...hais....

if she is here, we all will be busy from the afternoon onwards...she will be preparing stingray! wrapping it with aluminium foil and the yummy chilli..haha...we will also be at the park by 5pm instead of 10pm..-.- (it's the first time that we start BBQ at such a late time!)

haha~..all memories with smiles and happiness with alot of sighs when thinking of it!!! she is always on our mind!!! sorry i cant help it and this is how much we all misses her...i wish to hear her voice once more! :/

*Medicine + Cream = Pimples-less soon..
*Late Night Sleep = Pimples FULL! how to have no pimples with every night late late late sleep~ ....

JIAYOU! rush hour every night

2007-11-06T22:30:00.000+08:00

JIAYOU! haha...no choice but have to start with this...haha..yea everyone is telling me JIAYOU...and i'm telling everyone to JIAYOU too! haha..

ok last week's plan all changed....LOL...saturday i did not had any buffet lunch with cousins for unknown reason...they ps me...haha...my sister had to work and i ask her what abt the lunch and she said....huh got lunch meh? -.-" they are the ones who keep asking me to go for tt buffet...nvm we will set another date again...

recent night...rushing and rushing for the next day dateline...haha...and only sleep at 3am in the mrgn..haha...energy is draining but i have to keep myself at the HIGH ENERGY mindset...haha..sunday night my morale was very low and i think i couldn't do this and that and i did smthg stupid....and i disappoint someone and i really feel guilty, upset and i apologise for that....and thanks to those who 'kai dao' me....((= whatever it had happen is no longer that important anymore! what's important is i have to FIGHT on no matter what!

this whole week is rush hour! none of the day is relaxing and we could not afford to...haha...anyway i'm not the only one rushing, it's almost the whole BZE year3.2 students...hahaha...and ytd i'm nagging and complaining to Peizhen nonstop...haha...i just scolding the F word non stop....cos while rushing for the supply chain proposal last night, news of more datelines came....wa.....rush rush rush...stress stress stress...the clock keep tick-tock, tick-tock leh! wa rushing and stressing....

i found out i made alot of valuable friends...they really cheer me up...they called to help me to de-stress...they msn me online too...and others la...haha..and cancer people help each other to jiayou by sending Kisses, Muackz and Hugs online...those msn functions...and they really HUG in school today..out of no where in the middle of the road....haha..libra don do that...or shld i say only me? haha...

i only know i have become a cry baby and i only know how to cry...haha..ok everyone has their own way to make themselves feel better in stress situation...(=

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~...

2007-11-04T14:24:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....

i haven ahhh enough...the scream is still inside! i want to let go...i want to ahhhhhhhhhhhh.....!

the feeling is difficult to say out...i only know i don feel good now! arrgh!

Random: waiting for 7pm

2007-11-02T17:36:00.001+08:00

currently in school waiting for time to pass...cos i'm meeting cindy 7pm at TM for dinner and to meet sinyee later too...not confirm if meeting chunwai cos he is a BUSY man....haha..

suppose to be doing MP but both of us are too tired to do...and i'm busy using my laptop, surfing the net and chatting on msn....i donno felicia is too tired or angry with me not doing project? haha..mindy and peizhen came to find us again and we chit-chatted till the rain stop...yes it is raining heavily just now...and i didnt bring my jacket with me to school! shit....now still feeling cold and trembling...haha...wear shorts some more! i deserve it ar! haha..felicia went home already so now i'm waiting for time to reach 7pm!!! dot...

tml will be having lunch with cousins....they wanted to eat sakae BUFFET...hais...eat again...haha..but i do enjoy eating! =X haha...weekend is tomorrow! haha...anybody from studying, working or in NS had been waiting for weekends! haha...ok so bored and random...

next week's schedule? BWP are we going out on tuesday evening after school or wednesday? wednesday night i have to attend BBQ so best is Tuesday k? haha...thursday is DEEPAVALI which means PUBLIC HOLIDAY! haha..i think i am going to have a family day! hehe..morning breakfast, afternoon shopping and evening visit to grandma followed by dinner with all my aunties and uncles?! haha...

i think tonight i will fall asleep very fast because i am very tired! my back still aches...i have been a walking vampire this whole morning in school....haha...brain was shut and couldn't get myself high or participating eagerly in any discussion....

we met Mr Teo for our MP...he seems optismistic about our project...haha...we have hope! HAHA!

boring boring...nobody is around to entertain me!!! tsk..haha...

let's buck up together my friends!!!((=

Urges...

2007-10-31T00:45:00.000+08:00

Time: 11.50pm, Tuesday Night
Date: 30th October 2007

I was doing CRM peer teaching assignment halfway where by quite a number of urges suddenly came…what kind of urges?

One: Wanted to sms or call sandy so much to see how she’s doing…but did not…because I don’t know how to start and it’s so weird to call her and say ‘Oh I just want to know how you are doing!’ hahaha…I am not the kind of person that will do these kind of things…haha…okay, we both had not really chatted or gossips or whatever since I’m back in Shanghai…right Sandy Tan? Haha...both busy with school work I guess? Or did I not make the effort to contact and find out how is she doing? Or too busy with own personal life le?! Hahaha…but seriously these few days keep thinking how she is…hahaha…Sandy are you doing ok? Anything feel free to contact me! haha…I’m always here for you, Lesbie!!! Wahaha…

Two: Wanted to message everyone to tell them to JIAYOU! Haha..cos I know everyone is stress too about school work, Major Project, personal life like family problem or relationships and so on….haha…but I did not do that because I feel weird doing that and also due to some constraints…haha…got this urge because me, myself is also STRESS! Wahaha..about school work…about major project...about personal problems.. LOL…haha…and I received news from friends who are facing all these stress too in all these different areas…but I’m like unable to be there for everyone…haha…I can only listen or ‘da ting’ from others? Haha…actions to be done by themselves ba? Haha..maybe I can only help cheer them up?!

Felicia you HENG I’m around with you most of the times tho no longer 24 hours la….HAHAHA! So now you know why I did remind you and keep JIAYOU-ing for you?! I reminded you to push and JIAYOU for each other…we both must really Jiayou…WE CAN DO IT….right?! Hee…still not very confident ar…hahaha…(= I think group members are important…they play a part in giving you confident, motivating and encouraging you to finish the project together with the best effort! Haha…if no group member never mind, individual project? It’s ok! FRIENDS will play the part project group partners are doing…haha…anything find FRIENDS…haha…if family helps for you, and then find them! Haha…FRIENDS can encourage, give you confident and motivate you too…haha...tho they might not be able to help you in project…haha..but at least there are someone there for you when you need confident, motivations or encouragement ba?! I believe FRIENDS will never reject rental of their ears for free…haha…I know mine will be there for any of my friends!

Haha…I didn’t know why I’m typing all these….maybe it is on purpose to some individuals…??? LOL…

I do TREASURE and APPRECIATE all the friendships I had now!!! like how much I treasure the kind of wonderful family ties I have had…((=

New phase of life coming...?

2007-10-31T00:43:00.000+08:00

Datelines and datelines and so many more of datelines!!!

STRESS STRESS STRESS!!

Yesterday (Monday night) I chatted with poh (sinyee) on the phone…and I realize I did make decisions…I mean I can decided without being indecisive! Haha..i don’t see when I can really make decisions decisively…haha…and until ytd when I chatted with sinyee abt smthg and I realize it then after telling her…haha…I was quite surprise at myself…haha..i was quite happy with myself…maybe I’m growing up?
HAHA…thinking too much huh me?! haha…funny that she realize I read her like a book! Haha…I didn’t realize I read her like a book too after she told me…haha…but I don’t think I read you like a book yet…there’s more to read about you ba?! Haha…long way to go for our friendship right?! Haha…

Last Friday night….while waiting for terry and poh (sinyee)…chatted quite a lot with chunwai…and he told me…life is like this…whatever you have met are just part and parcel of life….cannot blame anyone but it all depends on how you view things…it all depends on how you take the part and parcel of the life that comes to you…and I’m again surprised by myself….I just agreed and said ‘ya lor…it’s really important on how you view things…’ haha…these few days I surprised myself a lot…haha…you said ‘in life, don’t be too calculative and be contented with what you have…it’s really important…’ haha…but humans are not FAN JIAN one! Haha…of course I did not ‘shoot’ him with this…haha…I just let him talk what he wants…=X haha…it’s like so serious talk la…haha…but really heard a lot and I thought I’m really childish and stubborn on how I view things and on how I take or handle those things that came into my life….

Last week (don’t know which day) during CRM lab….i was checking TP mail..and I re-read one of the mail Mr Teo sent to us when we are in Shanghai…it’s a motivating mail…I had forgotten what it is about so I read it again during the lab…the moral of the story tells us about UNCONDITIONAL ACCEPTANCE…

I’m trying to learn really hard…am I growing? I think a new chapter of my life is coming…Time to think of future? Time to sit down quietly and think of serious plan? I am going into a new phase of life real soon izzit?

HA~am I doing self-reflections? Or because I really got knock down by these conversations? Is it time for me to let go? Should I learn to accept? Should I learn what unconditional acceptance is? Can I do it? Forgive and Forget? All are easier said than done! I need a lot of courage and determination to do these...

HA~ emo? Thinking further and further…leading towards something I don’t want to think about…but it just leads me there…ha-ha-ha…((=

weekends are sinful!

2007-10-29T00:21:00.000+08:00

woooo~ weekends are sinful for me! haha...of course don have to say...all i do was eat! haha...my aunties and uncles together with my mummy brought me to LongHouse for dinner after visiting grandma...wa...i ate chicken rice, fried oyster, popiah, chicken feet and hokkien mee! wahaha..delicious!!! and after that went to fetch Nicholas (cousin) and thgt of gg to bedok jetty but in the end we went to tampines GIANT....to help them to prepare to end operation for the day..hahaha...cos we reached there at ard 11.30? haha...

jasmine, felicia and qianyu...i get excited when i visit GIANT!!! wahaha...weird i went to look at maggie chilli sauce, detergent, yougurt drinks, ice-cream, VITASOY, tiger beer (having offer now!) and sanitary pads!!! wahaha...i saw 34cm's pad is having offer and i can only think of felicia and i quickly sms and tell her....wahaha..damn auntie...but i'm considerate to think of felicia k! haha..tho i know she can just use pampers instead of pads! =X wahaha...i so feel like buying anything i see in GIANT...as in chips, vitasoy, ice-cream, beer etc....all which we frequent bought at shanghai 's WenFeng...haha...but i see the price and the thought of that, i'm not paying for it....hahaha...and i can only fold my arms and keep my hands to myself! hahaha...hehe...and my xiaoyi bought sushi...wa...die....eat again lor...but i only ate one piece! haha...i got CONTROL! haha....

sunday...another sinful day...i had heavy brunch at 600+ bedok market..my grandma's house which is nearby mindy's house there...haha...food ordered are CHENDOL, (!!!) KWAY CHAP (!!!), soya milk (too bad the stall i frequent sell finish alr so i drank another stall which sucks!) and CHA KWAY(fried carrot cake!!!)....haha..omg i still got so many other food that i'm still craving in that hawker!!! haha..every food has some background behind it...

CHENDOL-i have been craving since before going shanghai..but always did not have the chance to eat it because i always frequent at the time where it either closing for the day or they did not open stall! arrgh...haha..last time it's dessert for all of us for almost every weekend at grandma's house!

KWAY CHAP- my all time favourite...memories~ every morning's breakfast...my ah gong and ah por will buy for me and siblings! memories~...i only like this market's kway chap! YUMMY!!! full marks for it!!! it never disappoints me!!!!

CHA KWAY- it must be WHITE with CHILLI! oh my...this is another one...contain alot of memories....whenever i eat it memories just flew into my head....my grandma always buy it for me as my breakfast! i did not like white fried carrot cake at all when young..and i still rmb when my grandma first bought for me i even told myself...huh why white colour one...tsk..haha...in the end i grew to love it...and i told myself YUMMY everytime after eating after that day! haha...really...i did not lie or trying to be emo again....so every now and then whenever i go to that market...i will want to eat that tho i'm eating other food...and my parents nor anybody knows why i like tt stall's carrot cake that much! and i only frequent that stall!!! mindy try it!!! haha...it's an old couple sell one...$2 per plate only...haha..CHEAP! memories~...

so afternoon, went This Fashion to try get sister's clothing for her temporary work....and next went to visit grandma....eat again when xiaoyi bought food.....shit...haha...and follow by dinner...i have already forgotten what is hungry for this whole weekend!!! haha...all i do is eat and eat!!!

sooo...tml is workout day! haha...piwen organise exercise day...so tml is BWP exercising day...we are gg to jog!!! hahaha...yea!

friday night...meet up with chunwai, terry and sinyee...for k-box session...they have been craving since 1 week before i'm back...also donno why they so gian k-box...haha...ok so i met up with chunwai after his work and we waited for terry and sinyee! wa...this two...really know how to drag...before that, they meet up with WanTing...so they're busy chatting till they've forgotten they got to meet the both of us...we had reached Parkway for hours and they are still on the way! -.- so nth to do but to crap and chat so tt few hours and in that few hours we realise te k-box is under renovation! ha-ha-ha...lost for that moment..called the both of them also useless cos in the end decision was made by us...so we went to Cineleisure...haha..and both of them were at orchard when with wanting...haha..but luckily got terry's car la! if not have to spend midnight charge cab fare! haha...it was fun..both terry and chunwai sang really well...as usual i pay $$$ to go listen concert! hahaha...no la..i did sang few songs....HAHA! (=

Changes...Feelings back in School

2007-10-26T20:51:00.000+08:00

I was quite tired today...and slept just now when i'm back from school...

finally got time to update few things that I encountered these few days…on Tuesday, BWP had a celebration for sandy’s birthday cum a gathering at tampines stadium that Japanese restaurant…haha…and when it’s time to pay for bill…you know what I shouted? 买单( bill please in china)! But my mind was telling me to say bill please instead of买单 in chinese! And I was shocked by what I said and opps I quickly shut up…before I shout for 服务员 (waiter in china)! Haha…luckily my volume was not loud…if not I’ll be damn pai she…after hearing 买单 shouted out from my mouth, I quickly hide behind vivi’s back and laughed! Haha…it’s so funny n pai seh…haha…I actually have not adapt back yet….HAHA!

Next incident was at TM’s Mac….we bought ice-cream and slack at Mac…I wanted to take tissue from the counter….and I told the auntie I want 纸锦…haha…yes again…usually we will say tissue instead of 纸锦…and I kana shock and at the same time I’m laughing at myself…HAHA! again Felicia looked at me and laughed! Haha…it’s so serious la…haha…I speak so standard Chinese! Hahaha…

Wednesday (no school), I had Mac at tmart for dinner…and I wanted the garlic chilli sauce…I was thinking what is that call…甜辣酱 (sweet and spicy sauce in china)? NO! haha…and I was lost for words…and I just keep action-ing with my hands and I donno what am I trying to show…and in the end I said the other kind of chilli! HAHA…garlic chilli sauce was in my head but didn’t know why it just couldn’t come out from my mouth!!! HAHAHAHA!

Thursday, second day back in school…another language issue…rangers went to mensa for lunch…both Felicia and I queued for vegetarian food…and I saw potato…and I told her, ‘hey got 土豆 leh!’ Opps..again…I quickly shut my mouth and Felicia looked at me and laughed at me for being so cheena! Haha…in china potato is call土豆….HAHAHA…! damn funny…and since Felicia was laughing at me, I question her back, ‘ok so usually what we call potato in chinese?’ haha she answered me ‘potato lor!’ hahaha…I even thought it was 薯泥 (KFC’s whipped potato)…HAHAHA….actually we should feel ashamed of ourselves right?! Hahahaha…ok I know…potato is call 番薯….LOL…Jasmine I ate celery today!!! Haha…it was nice cos don have the celery smell and I told Felicia, ‘COMPANY de still got the smell, this one don even have the smell!’ yea…I said COMPANY and Felicia looked at me saying ‘Company? Ha-ha-ha…Compnay ar Company?!’ haha…cos I said like as if I’m still in Shanghai Amtek that company! LOL…I just couldn’t change myself back…haha…but I did not said all that on purpose…it was all naturally blurted out from my mouth….hahaha…

How’s first day back in school? The feeling was weird and I feel so old and odd…because I see all unfarmiliar faces…all the other seniors had already graduated and now I’m the senior already!!! OMG~ OLD!!! I feel weird to be in school…haha…I kept questioning myself ‘why am I in school?’ now and then even till today (the second day of school)..! haha…and out of no where I will ask myself like ‘eh where is jasmine and qianyu…what are ah pek, ah bin, jun wen and yong shun doing?!’ hahaha…my mind still stop at the stage where there are 8 interns in shanghai…LOL…yes kwa zhang! Exaggerating! Hahaha…donno how to describe but the feeling is just confusing, lost and especially weird!

My classmates? Omg…all the girls…all become so skinny and feminine! Peizhen changed A LOT! Haha…wear SHORTS, MINI SKIRTS (as heard from the others but I’ve yet to see it) and she wore shoes instead of slippers!!! Hahaha…omg…the feeling that she gave me are really different from before I went OSIP….she has changed…more feminine definitely and she is still as skinny as before despite all the titbits she had been eating! Next person…SzeHui…another one…I think she has also slim down….grown more feminine also…wear skirts now! Put on make up some more! haha…to me all the girls in my class are like all so skinny except me!!! TSK!! And all are so feminine la out of a sudden! Arrgh!

Ok the guys? Nth much…clement turn really dark, junrong change hairstyle, Jordan as beng as before, kwangming older? =X huiwei changed but I donno how he changed….zhiheng more mature and very loving with doris….wa doris another one! So skinny!!! Hais….dot…ramli more gay!!! Haha…joel still as so talkative…yaoqing better treat my fren well! Haha….did I miss out anyone?! Haha…hope no…I just feel so out of place to stand among the girls!!! No confidence at all! I feel FAT (actually, in fact I’m fat)!!! =X

Something funny…usually in shanghai…I will nag at Felicia to go to sleep early if not next day she will sure be tired and show me tt restless look in the office the whole day which I hate…haha…and soo…on Monday night where by Tuesday we will be going to school the first day! I donno why when I lied onto my bed….automatically…I just flip open my handphone and started typing ‘hey sleep early hor! If not tml cannot wake up den late!’ hahaha…yes different room, different block, different apartment, different roof, different environment etc….i still can sms n nag at her to sleep early! haha…but serious my naggings will then make her sleep if not she will feel weird to not able to hear me nag at her! Haha…and know what she also disturb my sleep as always!!!

Same thing… different room, different block, different apartment, different roof, different environment etc….she still don wan to let me have a good night sleep….because in shanghai she is always the one who wants to tell me or heart to heart talk to me at night only when I’m just about to fall into deep sleep! TSK…and on Monday night…same things repeat! Her sms woke me up when finally after few hours and I’m falling into deep sleep!!! And her content of sms had nth to do with me but regarding her things! Dot!!! IDIOT~! Haha…are we 2 really cannot be separate? Dot…and she is damn er xin to sms and tell me on the phone that SHE MISS ME!! oh my goodness~ I whole body was like….eerrrrwww….I’m like kwui qi lai de lor! is er xin dao~

Answer: DON'T THINK! (=

2007-10-24T01:54:00.000+08:00

Felicia I do not like you! I don’t know if Felicia’s sensitivity is being especially high or what…she really sees me inside out! And I feel like…ha~ how come she knows everything about what I’m thinking and feeling?! Inside out! And I feel so not secure and it is like my territory is being invade! Felicia can you turn off your sensitivity thermometer! Haha…Switch it on when is needed…those unnecessary issue you can just switch your thermometer off….wa I feel so insecure now! haha…really….now u make me think more! (And I don’t like to think much!)

(Oh I know when I do feel insecure already! When someone knows everything about me…I don’t like it! That is why I don’t share all my things….haha…)

What you ask was totally almost right and I’m really shocked and too shocked and excited that I just shoot out ‘yes yes that’s right!’ and I was stupid to reply that eagerly without thinking…cos it’s that shocked that I ‘m surprise that someone knows about it and I just shoot out what my heart is telling me! Note it’s not my mind at that moment! Oh My God~ haha…that was impulsive and the stupidity of me!!!

Felicia…what you say are right….I thought of it before but I choose to not think any deeper and take it as it is….but now you seems like using a big big hammer (like your that inflated balloon) trying to break open my head and you just keeping shouting all these things into my mind….somehow like trying to knock some sense into my head….haha…

How? I know what I want to do…I know I don’t want to have any unclear relations with that person….I want to make it clear too….I waiting for that opportunity to come and make it clear of the relations that I wanted…..wasting of both party’s time is never at help…hais but like what you have said…I make it clear already so? It’s only the relations clear…but what about the mind and feelings?! I NEED ACTIONS!!! Yea…you are right and I know it all…but I have no idea what I can do….maybe like as you said…I need to instill new mindset and self psycho….I’ll think of ways to self psycho ba?! Like what you said it’s not fair to the others…and some sense had really been knock into my coconut head….you told me something which I did not think of….yea it’s unfair…which I hate people being treated unfairly whereby I have always been doing it without realizing….which makes me feel really bad right now…I see myself as being so blind to see this point of me treating the others that unfairly…Thanks for reminding me this…

But in anyway…at this moment, FAMLIY IS AT THE TOP OF MY MIND….nothing else…and I also do not want to know or bother or think much of other things…..I would not want to waste my time thinking of those useless or no outcome things….I do not need any of them, I just need my family people and friends! All the others are at the back seats of my mind and by right it should not occupy any of my time thinking of all these unnecessary things…I do not need it and I do not feel like having it…so I’ll just take it as it comes…I do not like to think much as I said…

Hmm…how do I or how should I phrase out what I wants to say…Felicia the question you asked on the bus was impossible and to me it is unrealistic…and I do think of unrealistic issue…so nothing will happen and I will not make situations turn out bad…so everything should be fine…I do not like to be fox okay?! (tho I always happen to be or looks like one! Opps…=X) If I want to…I would have done it since don’t know how many years way back! Haha…you got what I mean? Did I phrase what I want to say out clearly? Haha…NO I did not cos I don’t know how to! LOL…

Question: What is the use of thinking so much about this kind of issues???
Answer: DON’T THINK! HAHA~

Skinny her

2007-10-22T22:08:00.000+08:00

have been waiting very long to update this entry....

weekend was spent visiting my grandma....first look at her on saturday....only one word...SKINNY! become more skinny and looks pale...)= so i helped her to massage...clean...apply cream....whatever i can do for her....

i look into her eyes, holding her hand and i can see she is looking at me....i called her...eyes turn watery...tears flow out again...her stomach which was once big had become so small now....instead is my stomach growing bigger....=X haha...her legs had become so skinny....i pull up and i can see the bone......the hands too....it's so heart breaking to see all these....i cried but i control....

as usual got phlegm....so nurse was here to help her clear the throat....this process is never good....because a pipe has to go into the throat to suck the phlegm out...she will have to cough really hard till her eyes will open super big.....i'm holding her hands throughout this process....looking at how she is suffering makes me cry....i donno how many times i have to cry..i only know my heart is feeling very heavy and uncomfortable....the nurse saw me crying and told me it's ok and all....i'm not crying cos i scare she will not be fine....i'm crying cos of what she is going through and i can only hold on to her hands and only witness the whole process with my eyes!

i just cannot stop crying....have i become a cry baby?! ever since her incident...anything about her makes me cry....everything about her affects me alot....she is the reason for me wanting for longing that much to return to singapore! i miss her...i see her now....so? ha~ i donno...i donno what i talking about...haha...i donno how to describe the feelings i had the moment i see her....

the 3 baby cousin...they are forever baby to me...cos i see them grow up from a few months baby to this age and still going on...they are all my BABY COUSINS!!!

the red circled cheeky guy...name SHAWN (aged 7)...he is damn cute and is my precious! haha..he never fails to make me smile! and he is so sweet to rmb my birthday!!! tho i'm like in Shanghai! HAHA! and know what he say when he saw me inside the airport the glass door...neh neh i see her...the one with alot of PIMPLES! omg~ see how cute he is!

the pink circled lady...SAMANTHA (aged 10) another cousin whom i 'look after' since she's baby...i feed them, i played with them, i make them to sleep etc...haha..omg i seems so old...she has been growing older and bigger in size! trying hard to control her diet!!! she is the youngest female cousin in the family while i'm the eldest female cousin! haha

the blue circled....NICHOLAS (aged 12), another forever baby to me...this one i really look after him alot....feed him, carry him around, make him to sleep, play with him, bring him to school etc...he is my childhood...he is part of my childhood....see him changing from a super cute handsome baby to nursery kid with his forever mushroom head to now primary school and soon he will be in sec school! omg~ i'm old!!!

the posters by my dearest FAMILY and donuts by BWP and lesbie tan....

now you know why i love them so much? they doted me alot!

finally after 3 days, i cleared all the things...but i only categorise them in paper bags..have yet to really clear it all! haha!

I'm HOME II

2007-10-21T02:11:00.000+08:00

Part II

haha..on the plane....feliCAI spilled her orange juice onto me...dot....so my jacket and my jeans kana! -.-" the air stewardess was so apologetic about it...haha...but luckily the flight is long enough to let my pants get dry....

when we reached singapore and i see all the tiny orange lightings below the plane...i get excited and i cried! haha...yes silly me...i'm really happy to be able to get home!!! haha...told you...i didnt know why my tears drop so easily now.....haha~

we got down the plane not very fast cos there are alot of people....so we let them off first...wa...it's so heavy to carry my bagpack which contains all my notes, books and laptop...i can't walk right up straight instead walk like LiangPorPor! HAHA! we got the trolley as soon as we cross the custom! haha...felt so relieved without the heavy burden on my back! that's y i appreciate how the guys helped us to carry our luggages...lol...

jasmine, feliCAI and qianyu busy choosing vodka while i looked after the trolley..dot...after felicia had settle her bill...we both pushed to the conveyor belt to collect our luggages....i see my family ppl...haha...yea...tears again....never mind i controlled...so all the tears go back in...haha...

then as i pushed my trolley nearer to the glass door..i saw a poster with all of my family people waving, smiling happily at me! haha...omg....this time round, i really cannot tahan...the tears came rushing out again! haha...i'm shocked and touched by the poster! haha...they really did a poster for me!!! haha...it's so ugly la....i cry as i push the trolley out...thanking all of them...haha...and my little cousin drew drawings and cards for me! i've go a present too! haha..at that moment, i felt happiness...i'm so fortunate to have such a wonderful family! i felt that i am seriously being loved and was being doted too much!

next the BWP! they bought donuts for feliCAI and me! haha...another surprise! they got a poster too...a A4 paper...haha...and i heard it's only to welcome feliCAI only lor! TSK! haha...and sinyee came too! haha...so happy to see all of them!!!

my aunties and uncles drove me home and they went for dinner....i didnt join them because i've already dated terry, sinyee and chunwai for supper...felt sorry cos i think they on purpose waited for me to have dinner together but i already got plans...

terry, chunwai and sinyee came to fetch me under my block and we went to geylang for frog congee and we slacked at tmart till 3++am....laughed and it's very entertaining...they made my day! heard updates from all of them...felt quite sorry that as a friend i can't be around when chunwai is going through some upsetting moments...

but anyway....thanks for bringing me out for supper though you all have to work, just book out from camps and all...haha...though everyone is busy and tired but you guys made an effort to welcome me home!!! THANKS!!!

THANK YOU BWP!!!

THANK YOU SINYEE, TERRY and CHUNWAI!!!

THANK YOU TO ALL MY FAMILY PEOPLE!!! ((=

I'm HOME I

2007-10-21T01:05:00.000+08:00

Part I

yeah i'm back home!!! i'm back in singapore!!!

19 october is a happy teary touching day for me!!!

recalling back in shanghai pudong international airport...the guys together with wu lei...fetch us from our apartment....they helped us carry the heavily overweight luggages down to the vehicle...on the way to airport...the situation is like quite weird and i can feel awkward-ness..haha...also donno why....i only know i keep smiling non-stop....happiness felt in my heart and the smile shown on my face! haha..jasmine who is sitting opposite me (facing me) just couldn't tahan that i keep smiling at her...LOL...

as soon as we reach the airport...trolley taken to put our luggages and we pushed to the check in counter but it is still very early..so we took photos (still in ah pek's camera) and we walked to KFC for lunch....cos the guys didnt had their lunch before coming to fetch us....haha...wu lei joined us for lunch too...

after lunch, we met Arthur and Xiao Shen at the counter...cos they came to send the lady boss back to Singapore...yes same flight as us girls.....

we checked in successfully! luckily the counter girl was kind enough to let all of our luggages in....ok so first stage CLEAR! haha...my luggage weighed at 31kg! jasmine's 32kg! felicia and qianyu's only ard 29 or 28kg..haha...si Arthur keep saying ji siao us upon looking at the size and thickness of our luggage! haha...
First Stage - CLEAR!

sign of relieve shown after stage 1...haha...but Xiao Shen was with the serious, stress and worried face....she is very worried for us....ok so we carried our packbag, laptop bag, hand carriage....and off we proceed to the next stage.....and......we failed to pass the second stage! haha..idiot policeman....so Xiao Shen and Wu Lei suggest try to go in by another gate....so we tried and this time round, we separate...i'm the first and i got in successfully! haha! so i waited for felicia....but she failed to come in.....wa....worrying and scary....i'm inside and i couldn't go out to help her...wa den her face like so stress and is like gg to break down anytime like that...so i can only see her and hopefully she gets in....soon jasmine and qianyu had already joined me inside....felicia had to try the next door but still kana rejected...cos her bagpack too PONG and her laptop bag too thick already.....and she has to go to the security counter....Xiao Shen and Arthur helped her to distract the security's attention and she managed to get through by checking in one of her hand luggage! haha....poor her.....sooooo second stage after first try we all CLEAR!!! haha...

when we all got in....stupid emo feliCAI started crying...idiot make me cry also...cos we are really touched by what Xiao Shen, Arthur and Wu Lei had did for us....they worried for our weight luggage...accompanying us through every stage.....they came to send us off....feliCAI was touched and at the same time abit kana scared by the situation she is facing earlier on...she is very worried she have to pay money for the excess weight baggage! haha...idiot...so i'm affected by her tears!

on the plane...already flying up in the sky already...and yea...she starts again...emo~...but this time round is i cry first! haha...cos she ask me question like...will i miss sh or whatever those same question again...she has been asking me this question ever since we touched down in shanghai! and for me...my answer had not changed untill the last week i had in Shanghai....the people that appreciate and whom really treated us as friends gave me warmth and their actions touched me....they make me add on something else to my usual answer...

before, my usual answer is: no...i wun miss here....not the life or environment or the place...maybe just the freedom i had and the shopping ba?!

now, my updated answer: i will still miss the freedom here.....but i will also miss the people here....they make me miss Amtek.....

haha...so i told her my feelings and thoughts....i felt touched by all of their actions....i thought we might not leave any impression or anything on them...they might not remember us as clearly as the previous batch...but after seeing all what they had done for us...i think we make a difference....we make them remember us..i mean....i can feel that....they wun forget us....because i thought previously we are just another batch of students who are in Amtek but we aren't really close to them as compared to the previous batch....but now it doesn't seems like the case.....

anyway i just appreciate what they did for us.....i donno what to say to them...speechless...but only the word THANK YOU!!!

oh other than Arthur and Xiao Shen...i have to thank the guys....esp. ah bin and ah pek! for taking care of us this 4 little girls....lol..as compare to their age, we are like small girls...haha..if not how ah pek this name comes about?! haha..you all are another additional bonus memories for our OSIP trip....i donno about the others but to me you all really make a difference! without you all, our last week spent in shanghai might not be as fun and memorable!

THANKS again...(=

Random: Emo..sudden fear

2007-10-15T20:50:00.000+08:00

donno why....today on the way back home....the sudden fear came again....donno why....it's still that scary and make me feel very insecure! .... hate this feeling!

i'll be back in 4 days..! and i'll have to face it in ???? days.....i miss her....

ha~ emo again...

*Ps: felicia sorry for today's temper! (=

Saturday: the Bund with the guys...

2007-10-13T23:47:00.000+08:00

weather is turning cold!!! finally after monday's storm...it's AUTUMN!!! haha...

the new batch of of sudents are here since wednesday! haha...4 guys whom are all older than us...the youngest is 20 years old (same age as qianyu) while the oldest is 26 years old!!! oh my god~! hahaha....3 had gone through army but not the youngest one...

it's so fun to have so many people working together again! haha...our cubicle are so squeezy suddenly and it's so noisy...haha..we have 8 ppl having all the meals together...it's fun! haha..time passes very fast....which is good! haha~...

Saturday:

landlord came to visit the new batch of guys....haha...this is the last time i'll be seeing this kuku landlord...yea i don't really like him! he don make me feel good! the cleaning auntie was kana treated fried squid by the old guys....haha...

we brought them to QiPu road...they bought nothing much and we girls bought nothing much too! it's serious..i'm not lying....our bags are like only 1 each! haha...yes i know it's the first time i say we bought nothing much....it's very crowded there...we all had heaache after visiting the place....in addition to the cold weather and all of the cold wind we 'enjoyed' while walking on the way there...

the 4 new guys: the ah pek (uncle david), yong soon, ah bin(zheng bin), jun boon(the youngest)

us...slacking at the open area along nan jing dong lu.....

dinner was steamboat at NanJingDong road followed by the Bund (WaiTan)...i'm not sure why i'm so energetic while on the way walking to the Bund....as i was talking, crapping and lame-ing throughout the whole walking journey.....cam-whoring non-stop as soon as we reached the place...haha...we all were finding a right angle to try to take picture with that pearl....haha...also donno what's so nice abt that big marble look alike ball! haha...and i was always trying to get into photo and be the 'model'...wahaha...FUN! of course i did use my golden hand to self-take with felicia's handphone! hahaha....(=

we slacked there around for awhile and chit-chatted till around 10pm....

Emo: am i tired of it?!

2007-10-08T20:43:00.000+08:00

so much of those happy no worries post? now...a emo post...a questioning post....a contridicting post....a post of fears and worries....

i've been looking forward to return back to Singapore ever since the second week here in shanghai..but now...i'm worrying and had some kind of weird feeling that i doesn't wants to go back...it's not about missing or i can't bear to leave this place...i know and u all shld know that i have been waiting...waiting for the day that is coming in 10 days time...i very much want to go home, to see all my family members...to reunite with them....but somethings just makes me reluctant to go back....

now seriously i'm asking myself...should i be happy that i'm going home in 10 days time....should i? or say i should ask should i not?!

hmmm...a tough question huh? always contridicting myself...ha~...

alot of those 'what if ' questions appears in my mind again...what am i thinking? i know...sooner or later i will still have to face the reality....i know the day will come no matter what...and i have to face it no matter what or no matter when it is.....but i just don wanna face it....facing this cruel truth is like the most difficulty thing for me....maybe i sounded too over or being too over exaggerating....but this is the first time how i seriously feel...i've never been this scare before....i can breakdown easily just because of this incident....the thought of it can just make me cry....it's just only the thought of it that can already make me cry....what do you if it's the reality....and i've to face it...i donno if i can take it....

i feel sooooo ultra small and useless whenever all these things start....it makes me feel very weak and i don't feel like facing anyone.....i just wanna be alone....i feel so lonely that i need a hug badly whoever's hug it was...i just need someone to hug me tight to prevent me from collasping....i donno what am i thinking.....

i tried very hard to not get myself too affected by all my thoughts....but the tears just keep flowing and flowing....where can i find my body's tap, the main switch to off the tears pipe?! it is really the most scary feeling i ever had.....i know i had been too protected before...i realise i have been too naive before that i thought i wun lose anyone...i thought i wun lose anyone in such a terrible and awful way....i took happiness forgranted and i really do regret it......any more chance given to me? maybe you thought you had given me enough chance but to us, humans, we are selfish and wanted more and hope that the supply is unlimited.....i know you aren't that generous.....

what can i do?

i know the obvious answer is to stop avoiding and face it....but i don't have that courage....i lack of that huge amount of courage.....or maybe the courage has alwasy been with me....but i'm just finding excuse still to avoid the reality....is it all about myself? is it all about whether i want to accept it? is it me that is just trying to be funny and stubbornly wants to keep on playing emo all these while to avoid the reality?!

sometimes i'm just so tired to keep recieving all these news....i tired of you always bringing us high up, giving us hopes and dash it all up and pull us down right to the bottom......i can't be bother sometimes...i don't want to let it affect me...but it still affects me badly!

am i still hoping for miracles? or miracles had always been happening already? or have i given up? i have not, right?! i'm still hoping for more right? maybe or maybe not, i already have all these answers in my mind....

THANKS JIE YI!

2007-10-08T19:59:00.000+08:00

THANKS JIE YI FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY CARD!

Stamp from Singapore!!!

Opening it.....

a closer look..yea 3D again! this year i've got 2 3D card! (=

though it's abit late...haha..never mind your wishes are still sent to me and i can feel it! ((=

i LOVE it... THANKS!!!